NF - HAPPY
[00:05.60] Dear God, please
[00:09.80] Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years
[00:14.84] Since I've reached
[00:19.03] Out and said hello, I bet You're wondering
[00:23.52] Why I keep
[00:27.73] Obsessing on and stressin' all the little things
[00:32.78] When I should be
[00:36.98] Living life and soaking up the memories
[00:41.44] I know I've been selfish, I have
[00:45.91] No excuse to give You, it's true
[00:50.66] Hanging by a thread's how I live
[00:54.84] I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
[00:59.58] Livin' in my agony
[01:02.37] Watchin' my self-esteem
[01:04.33] Go up in flames, acting like I don't
[01:08.80] Care what anyone else thinks
[01:11.60] When I know truthfully
[01:13.56] That that's the furthest thing from how I
[01:18.03] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
[01:21.38] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
[01:26.68] The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
[01:31.43] Who I'd be if I was happy
[01:35.34] Yeah, been this way so long
[01:37.29] It feels like somethin's off when I'm not depressed
[01:39.26] I got some issues that I won't address
[01:41.22] I got some baggage I ain't opened yet
[01:43.45] I got some demons I should put to rest
[01:45.69] I got some traumas that I can't forget
[01:47.93] I got some phone calls I been avoidin'
[01:50.16] Some family members I don't really connect with
[01:52.12] Some things I said I wish I woulda not let slip
[01:54.35] Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips
[01:56.87] Some bridges burned I'm not ready to rebuild yet
[01:59.10] Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
[02:01.33] I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
[02:03.57] And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
[02:06.09] Losin' hope, headed down a dangerous road
[02:08.05] Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm
[02:09.73] Livin' in my agony
[02:14.48] Watchin' my self-esteem
[02:17.00] Go up in flames, acting like I don't
[02:20.63] Care what anyone else thinks
[02:23.71] When I know truthfully
[02:25.94] That that's the furthest thing from how I
[02:30.42] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
[02:34.61] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
[02:39.10] The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
[02:43.85] Who I'd be if I was happy
[02:49.16] Livin' in my agony
[02:50.28] Watchin' my self-esteem
[02:50.56] Go up in flames, acting like I don't
[02:50.56] Care what anyone else thinks
[02:50.84] When I know truthfully
[02:51.12] That that's the furthest thing from how I
[02:51.12] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
[02:51.39] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
[02:51.39] The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
[02:51.67] Who I'd be if I was happy
[02:51.96] Don't know what's around the bend
[02:54.47] Don't know what my future is
[03:02.02] But I can't keep on livin' in—
[03:05.94] Livin' in my agony
[03:09.01] Watchin' my self-esteem
[03:11.24] Go up in flames, acting like I don't
[03:15.71] Care what anyone else thinks
[03:18.23] When I know truthfully
[03:21.03] That that's the furthest thing from how I
[03:23.55] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
[03:23.55] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
[03:32.49] The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
[03:38.08] Who I'd be if I was happy
