F64

[00:00.87] "F64"

[00:10.96] Yo Jam, this is a letter to you

[00:12.55] It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth

[00:15.21] And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two

[00:17.87] Trying to live life with a smile but that's been harder to do

[00:20.52] 'Cause all I wanna do is talk about you

[00:22.39] But these tears won't let me talk about you

[00:24.24] We should've known that we'd be lost without you

[00:26.10] Therapy sessions, digging deep in depression

[00:27.97] I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fucking heart

[00:31.15] At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile

[00:33.28] I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in a while

[00:35.67] Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain

[00:38.05] 'Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it

[00:40.71] I never knew you touched the stuff, 'cause you'd always bad me up

[00:43.36] You saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does

[00:46.02] Before Lyra I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one

[00:48.41] I can't get over, this is fucked, man I wished I'd known

[00:51.07] And yo, we cried for nine nights in your family home

[00:53.20] Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone

[00:55.85] You know it hits me most at moments, now when I'm alone

[00:58.25] Every morning, I remember that you're really gone

[01:01.20] 'Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother

[01:04.92] You know for life, got your sis and mother

[01:07.58] And day and night, it still hits that you're gone

[01:10.23] And right now, I'm spilling tears in my cup

[01:12.61] You left the world before you met Jupiter

[01:15.27] Wish you'd have known, you would be godfather

[01:17.66] You would've loved loving my little girls

[01:20.32] If not for them, I'd be done with the world

[01:22.71] Was there two hours after you passed

[01:24.32] Speeding east to west, silent in the back of the car

[01:26.70] Was at your mum's, there all week, trying to make sense but I can't

[01:29.35] And although it's been a year, still feel the pain in my heart

[01:32.01] 'Cause you were there from the start

[01:33.35] The day we met, yeah I moved in and we were never apart

[01:35.48] People assumed that we were lovers but we're brothers in arms

[01:38.14] Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god

[01:41.59] Ah, fuck sake, lately I've been crying so much, my lungs ache

[01:46.10] Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains

[01:48.75] And I know to heal a heart, it must break

[01:51.15] But I'm done praying

[01:52.48] They gave me a shovel at your burial and

[01:54.61] Watching you get lowered is something I can't forget at all

[01:57.03] And people find and stop me in the street and say it's terrible

[01:59.68] But they don't know you like I knew you and they never will

[02:02.60] No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rapping

[02:05.26] No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random

[02:07.92] No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbing

[02:10.31] No one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothing

[02:12.96] No one read the conversations of the moves that we were planning

[02:15.35] No one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandoned

[02:18.01] No one knew about your fears 'cause you would hide them with a smile

[02:20.66] No one knew when people took an inch, you would give 'em a mile

[02:23.05] 'Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowd

[02:25.71] They used to shout your net worth, but they don't mention it now

[02:27.84] They hear about your good deeds and infectious smile

[02:30.49] A golden heart that's still remembered is worth more than a crown

[02:33.16] I promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to Tanisha

[02:35.80] Mommy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you'd seen it

[02:38.20] I can't accept that you're gone, or the grief that I'm feeling

[02:40.85] I prayed to God for answers but he still won't give me a reason

[02:43.24] I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away

[02:46.19] I'll keep your legacy amazing, mate

[02:49.10] The conversations at your grave's the only way to be close

[02:50.96] I know you'll greet me with a smile on the day that I go

[02:53.62] 'Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother

[02:57.33] And for life, got your sis and mother

[02:59.99] You know I cry 'cause I miss my brother

[03:02.65] My brother was SBTV