Deja Vu
[00:01.51] DMC, we have a mid-30's male found down, unresponsive
[00:05.00] Possible overdose, substance unknown
[00:07.72] Pulse is 60 and thready. Respiration's 8
[00:10.49] He's intubated, and we're baggin' him now
[00:12.86] Uhh, BP: 90 over palp. Patient is cool, pale, and diuretic
[00:16.93] Has aspirated, uhh, GSC is 3, We'll update en route, ETA ten minutes
[00:22.13] As I, fall deeper into a manic state
[00:25.15] I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
[00:28.50] Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
[00:30.81] I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
[00:34.34] Start off with the NyQuil like "I think I'll just have a taste"
[00:37.00] Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate
[00:39.74] To a harder prescription drug called Valium like "Ya that's great"
[00:42.72] I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
[00:45.67] Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
[00:48.51] Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
[00:51.63] And you'd think that with all I have at stake
[00:53.73] Look at my daughter's face
[00:54.93] "Mommy something is wrong with dad I think
[00:57.11] He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me
[00:59.94] Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
[01:02.88] And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
[01:05.10] And he just fell asleep in his car reading Three Musketeers in the rear seat"
[01:08.68] Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[01:11.59] Feels like I been down this road before
[01:14.46] So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[01:17.84] As soon as I go home and close the door
[01:20.29] Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do
[01:24.94] But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that's a lie
[01:28.71] Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
[01:31.49] Maybe just a nice cold brew "What's a beer?"
[01:33.95] That's the devil in my ear I been sober a fuckin year
[01:36.72] And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin hear
[01:39.32] "Marshall come on we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
[01:42.44] And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half buzzed for half of the time
[01:46.28] Who's the mastermind behind that little line?
[01:48.64] With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind
[01:51.28] To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine
[01:53.94] Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
[01:56.64] Ouch look out for the wall, aim for the couch I'm 'bout to fall
[01:59.99] I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball
[02:02.89] Shit must've knocked me out, cause I ain't feel the ground at all
[02:05.75] Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?
[02:08.24] Man, fuck am I hungover and God damn I
[02:10.91] Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I?
[02:13.64] "All systems ready for take off please stand by"
[02:17.06] Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[02:20.45] Feels like I been down this road before
[02:22.95] So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[02:26.30] As soon as I go home and close the door
[02:28.67] Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do
[02:33.60] But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that's a lie
[02:37.09] Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
[02:39.67] So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ahh
[02:42.18] Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high
[02:45.17] Now I need it just not to feel sick, ya I'm getting by
[02:48.02] Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
[02:50.92] Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use
[02:53.77] There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin you to get through
[02:56.86] It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze
[02:59.34] What else is new? Fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes?
[03:02.26] Now here I am three months later, full blown re-lapse
[03:05.01] "Just get high until the kids get home from school Holmes relax"
[03:08.16] And since I'm, convinced that I'm an insom-niac
[03:10.98] I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps
[03:13.86] Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
[03:16.55] That's an Amb! en each nap, how many Valium, three?
[03:19.63] And that will average out to about one good hour's, sleep
[03:22.34] Ok so now ya, see, the reason how come, he
[03:25.00] Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
[03:27.98] See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath
[03:30.84] Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia, thing
[03:33.69] It was baloney was it the methadone ya, think
[03:36.43] Or the hydrocordone, you hide inside your pornos
[03:39.08] Your VCR tape cases, with you Amb! en CR, great paces to hide 'em ain't it
[03:43.31] So you can lie to Hailie, "I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina"
[03:47.86] Go in the room and shut the bedroom door, and wake up in an ambulance
[03:51.65] They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn
[03:54.26] Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
[03:57.32] Feels like I been down this road before
[04:00.05] So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
[04:03.33] As soon as I go home and close the door
[04:05.82] Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do
[04:10.74] But I can't, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that's a lie
[04:14.30] Cause I don't, and why I just don't know
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