Paralytic_States

[00:14.92] She could hear them fucking through those thin hotel walls

[00:33.56] She heard babies crying, she heard laughter, she heard sirens

[00:37.54] Red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes

[00:41.27] Blood spilled out on the porcelain

[00:43.11] The bathtub's overflowing

[00:45.22] Paralytic states of dependency

[00:49.48] Our waking life's just a living dream

[00:52.93] Agitated states of amazement

[00:56.65] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[01:00.36] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[01:04.10] Spread out face down on those stained cheap hotel sheets

[01:22.41] She spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be

[01:26.13] Cut her face wide open

[01:28.25] Shaved the bone down thin

[01:30.12] Pumped her lips up exaggerated

[01:31.72] A fucked up kind of feminine

[01:34.38] Paralytic states of dependency

[01:38.36] Our waking life's just a living dream

[01:41.81] Agitated states of amazement

[01:45.53] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[01:49.24] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[01:52.96] Night time at the hotel

[02:09.70] There was fighting in the hall

[02:11.27] Thin chain lock to keep the world out

[02:12.87] She held her breath till it was gone

[02:15.02] Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror

[02:18.73] In her dysphoria's reflection, she still saw her mother's son

[02:23.23] Paralytic states of dependency

[02:26.95] Our waking life's just a living dream

[02:30.68] Agitated states of amazement

[02:34.15] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[02:37.91] Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

[02:41.86] By the time the ball dropped, it was already over

[02:49.05] By the time the ball dropped, it was already over

[02:56.52] No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow