Getting Older

[00:10.87] I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well

[00:15.92] I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself

[00:22.31] There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for

[00:27.90] But it's different when a stranger's always waiting at your door

[00:34.02] Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more

[00:39.87] Than anyone before (anyone before)

[00:47.32] Too bad they're usually deranged

[00:53.43] Last week, I realized I crave pity

[00:57.94] When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse

[01:04.47] Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

[01:09.79] And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

[01:16.42] Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest, I was still being ignored

[01:24.93] (Lying for attention just to get neglection)

[01:31.04] Now we're estranged

[01:35.57] Things I once enjoyed (ah-ah)

[01:42.74] Just keep me employed now

[01:48.85] Things I'm longing for

[01:54.70] Someday, I'll be bored of

[01:58.95] It's so weird

[02:10.10] That we care so much until we don't

[02:16.48] I'm getting older, I've got more on my shoulders

[02:22.32] But I'm getting better at admitting when I'm wrong

[02:28.43] I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor

[02:34.01] To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

[02:40.13] 'Cause to be honest, I just wish that what I promise

[02:45.70] Would depend on what I'm given (not on his permission)

[02:52.60] (Wasn't my decision) to be abused, mmm

[03:01.11] Things I once enjoyed

[03:06.17] Just keep me employed now

[03:13.07] Things I'm longing for, mmh

[03:18.68] Someday, I'll be bored of

[03:22.92] It's so weird

[03:34.34] That we care so much until we don't

[03:40.19] But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughing

[03:46.09] For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine

[03:52.73] I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna

[03:58.04] Was too afraid to tell ya, but now, I think it's time