The Search - Edit

[00:02.09] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:04.34] I don't know, it's alright

[00:05.84] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:07.84] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:10.10] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:12.11] I just think I need a little me time

[00:14.09] I just think I need a little free time

[00:16.09] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:17.84] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:20.09] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:22.09] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:23.84] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:25.59] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:27.84] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:29.84] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:31.84] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:34.09] I've been searchin'

[00:35.35] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:36.34] I've been learning

[00:37.29] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:39.16] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[00:41.34] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[00:43.09] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[00:45.34] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[00:47.34] And things might hurt me

[00:48.35] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[00:50.34] It's worth it, though

[00:51.60] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[00:53.59] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[00:55.60] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[00:57.59] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[00:59.60] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:01.28] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:04.14] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:06.40] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:08.14] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:09.89] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:11.89] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:14.14] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:16.14] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:18.14] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:20.97] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:22.73] Where'd the beat go?

[01:24.22] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:25.72] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:27.73] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:29.97] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:31.72] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:33.72] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[01:35.72] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:37.61] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:39.63] I can be critical, never typical

[01:42.12] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[01:43.12] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[01:45.38] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[01:47.48] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[01:49.22] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[01:51.22] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[01:53.23] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[01:56.23] Yeah, the sales can rise

[01:57.73] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[01:59.72] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:01.48] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:03.72] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:05.48] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:07.72] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:09.73] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:10.97] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:13.47] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:15.47] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:17.48] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:19.47] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:21.47] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:23.47] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:25.48] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:27.47] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:29.47] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:31.72] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:33.73] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:35.72] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[02:37.47] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:39.73] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[02:41.72] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[02:43.72] It's that time again

[02:45.72] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[02:47.36] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[02:49.62] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[02:51.62] On a road right now that I can't predict

[02:53.61] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[02:55.36] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[02:57.61] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh