NF_Therapy_Session_Audio_

[00:18.55] Yeah, I got off stage like a month ago

[00:22.54] I was talking to fans

[00:23.07] And one of 'em pulled me aside and said

[00:24.93] "We never met, but I swear that you know who I am

[00:27.32] I've been through a lot

[00:28.38] I don't know how to express it to people, don't think that I can

[00:31.57] But I got that Mansion CD on rotation

[00:33.69] That's real for me, Nate, you do not understand"

[00:35.82] It's crazy for me

[00:37.14] Kids hit me up, say they slittin' they wrists on the daily

[00:39.54] This music is more than you think

[00:41.40] Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertainin'

[00:44.32] Hearin' these parents, they telling their kids

[00:46.18] My music is violent—you gotta be kidding me

[00:48.57] I guess that your definition of violence and mine

[00:51.22] Is something that we look at differently

[00:53.35] How do you picture me, huh?

[00:54.41] Want me to smile, you want me to laugh?

[00:57.06] You want me to walk on the stage with a smile on my face

[01:00.25] When I'm mad and put on a mask? For real though

[01:02.91] I mean, what you expect from me?

[01:04.24] I'm tryna do this respectfully

[01:06.10] They say that life is a race

[01:07.69] I knew my problems would prolly catch up eventually

[01:10.62] I do my best to be calm

[01:12.21] How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?

[01:14.87] That's just a glimpse to the stuff that gets sent to me

[01:16.99] These are the parts of my life they don't never see, woo!

[01:20.18] I am aware, it's aggressive

[01:21.77] I am not here for acceptance

[01:23.63] I don't know what you expected

[01:24.96] But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session, huh?

[01:29.74] Therapy, therapy session

[01:37.97] Therapy, therapy session

[01:46.74] This girl at the show looked me in the face

[01:49.66] And told me her life's full of drama (Yeah!)

[01:50.99] Said her dad is abusive

[01:52.32] Apparently, he likes to beat on her mama

[01:54.98] I got so angry inside

[01:56.56] I wanted to tell her to give me his number

[01:59.22] But what you gon' do with it, right?

[02:01.08] You gon' hit him up then he'll start hittin' her harder, that's real

[02:04.27] These kids, they come to my shows

[02:05.87] With tears in they eyes

[02:07.19] 'Magine someone looking at you

[02:08.79] And sayin' your music's the reason that they are alive

[02:11.45] Sometimes I don't know how to handle it

[02:13.04] This type of life isn't glamorous

[02:14.89] This ain't an act for the cameras (Nah!)

[02:16.49] You see me walk on these stages

[02:18.35] But have no idea what I'm dealing with after it, nah!

[02:20.48] I put it all in the open

[02:21.80] This is the way that I cope with all my emotion

[02:24.72] I'm taking pictures with thousands of people

[02:26.58] But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me

[02:28.97] I'm tryin' to deal with depression

[02:30.56] I'm tryin' to deal with the pressure

[02:32.43] How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message

[02:34.82] When I'm lookin' out at this crowd full of people I know I affected? Agh!

[02:39.07] I got some things in my life (My life)

[02:41.46] I know I should let 'em go (Let 'em go)

[02:44.91] Let me jot it down (Jot it down)

[02:45.44] Let me take a mental note (Mental note)

[02:47.30] I put it all in this microphone (Microphone)

[02:49.69] Think about that for a minute

[02:51.28] What is the point of this song? I'm just ventin'

[02:53.41] But what you expect from a therapy session, huh?

[02:56.60] Therapy, therapy session

[03:05.10] Therapy, therapy session

[03:13.60] What you think about me

[03:15.99] —That doesn't worry me

[03:17.05] I know I handle some things immaturely

[03:19.19] I know that I need to grow in maturity

[03:21.56] I ain't gon' walk on these stages, in front of these people

[03:24.22] And act like I live my life perfectly

[03:25.82] That doesn't work for me

[03:27.41] "Christian" is not the definition of what "perfect" means, woo!

[03:31.39] I ain't the type to be quiet

[03:32.99] I ain't gon' sit here in silence

[03:34.31] If I wouldn't say what I say to your face

[03:36.71] Then I promise you, I wouldn't say it in private

[03:38.84] I am not lyin'

[03:40.16] People go off on my page, and I'm tryin' to quit the replyin'

[03:43.10] But this is ridiculous

[03:44.96] I'm passionate, man, I really mean what I'm writing

[03:47.62] You want me to keep it a hundred?

[03:49.21] Okay, I'll keep it a hundred

[03:50.80] I see a whole lot of talkin' on socials

[03:52.93] But honestly, I don't see nothing in public

[03:55.32] I kinda love it, yeah

[03:57.44] "Why don't you write us some happy raps?

[03:59.56] That would be awesome"

[04:00.63] "All of your music is moody and dark, Nate"

[04:03.82] —Don't get me started (Yeah!)

[04:05.15] You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?

[04:09.13] Listen to my verses

[04:10.46] This music is not just for people

[04:12.32] Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches, nah!

[04:14.97] I won't reject it

[04:16.04] I don't expect everyone to respect it

[04:18.16] I don't expect you to get my perspective

[04:20.02] But what you expect from a therapy session?

[04:22.42] Huh?

[04:25.60] I mean, I think sometimes people—they confuse what I'm doin'

[04:35.70] I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with

[04:40.48] Something that I'm actually experiencing

[04:42.87] This is real for me

[04:44.19] Like, this is something that personally helps me as well

[04:47.11] I'm not confused about who gave me the gift

[04:49.77] God gave me the gift and He gave me the ability to—to do this

[04:52.96] And He also gave me this as an outlet

[04:55.62] And that's what music is for me

[04:57.21] When I feel something, whether it's anger

[04:59.33] Um, it's a passion about something—or frustration

[05:02.26] Like, this is where I go

[05:03.58] This is—this is—that's the whole "NF Real Music" thing, man

[05:07.57] This is real for me—I need this

[05:09.69] This is a therapy for me