Searching_for_a_Former_Clarity (1)

[00:14.06] No, the doctors didn't tell you that you were dying

[00:22.02] They just collected their money and sent you on your way

[00:32.38] But you knew all along, went on pretending nothing was wrong

[00:41.95] You said I will keep my focus until the end

[00:51.23] And in the journal you kept by the side of your bed

[01:00.01] You wrote nightly an aspiration of developing as an author

[01:10.89] Confessing childhood secrets of dressing up in women's clothes

[01:20.20] Compulsions you never knew the reasons to

[01:29.77] Will everyone you ever meet or love

[01:39.86] Be just a relationship based on a false presumption?

[01:48.63] Despite everyone you ever meet or ever love

[01:58.96] In the end, will you be all alone?

[02:07.99] As the disease spread slowly through your body

[02:12.79] Pumped by your heart to the tips of your arms and your legs

[02:18.09] Your greatest fear was that your mind wouldn't last

[02:22.61] The coherency and alertness would be the first things to fade

[02:27.39] As your hair thinned, as the weight fell off

[02:30.86] As your teeth blackened, as the lesions spotted your skin

[02:36.95] As you fell to your knees in the center of the stage

[02:41.74] As you offered witness to mortality in exchange for the ticket price

[02:46.51] As the lights blended into the continuing noise

[02:51.29] As all hope was finally lost

[02:55.55] Adrenaline carried one last thought to fruition:

[03:05.64] Let this be the end

[03:09.89] Let this be the last song

[03:15.21] Let this be the end

[03:19.19] Let all be forgiven