Death's Doorstep

[00:24.28] Ingesting or injecting Either way I’m getting high

[00:26.94] And it’s almost like I’m cheating If I’m able then I lie

[00:30.12] Assuming the worst I disregard responsibilities Making these rash decisions And testing the solubilities

[00:36.23] My pessimistic choices That I be choosing I’m lackadaisical

[00:39.42] Cravings have gotten inside me I’m finding it that’s insatiable

[00:42.61] How did this come to be

[00:43.40] Still undercutting me

[00:44.20] Stick a syringe in And siphon the blood I bleed

[00:45.79] 90 to nothing And stopping so suddenly

[00:47.13] I’m the pretender And thriving in subtlety

[00:48.72] I’m at my wit’s end

[00:51.37] It’s already been said

[00:54.56] This slow killing sickness With god as my witness

[01:00.94] I'm at the edge of death

[01:04.65] I feel this is my last breath

[01:08.64] This is my last breath

[01:12.62] What will be of me

[01:15.81] When I fall And I perish I perish

[01:25.37] Drinking maybe puffing Either method I’ll be buzzed

[01:28.56] I’m a crypt that’s full of secrets I’m the one you shouldn’t trust

[01:31.48] Now I’ve shifted the blame Completely riddled with shame

[01:34.41] To rehabilitate me Knock me out Cause I’m still awake

[01:37.59] I’m getting the tremors Getting the shakes

[01:39.18] And still I’m back to square one

[01:40.78] Tell me whatever

[01:41.57] What would they say instead If it was their son

[01:44.23] Same thing I don’t receive that kind of treatment though

[01:46.89] I’ve hidden the hurting

[01:47.69] But then I’m diverting

[01:48.48] It’s like they didn’t even know

[01:50.08] I’m at my wit’s end

[01:53.00] It’s already been said

[01:56.19] This slow killing sickness With god as my witness

[02:02.56] I'm at the edge of death

[02:06.02] I feel this is my last breath

[02:10.53] This is my last breath

[02:14.25] What will be of me

[02:17.17] When I fall And I perish I perish