Trauma
[00:09.11] Growing up I never had a lot of money
[00:11.35] I never had a phone
[00:12.42] Always was a little hungry
[00:13.54] Used to find it hard to sleep
[00:14.61] When I could hear my mother sobbing
[00:15.60] I was 10 back then
[00:17.55] I didn't have a room
[00:18.41] Had to buy used shoes
[00:19.82] I hid behind tunes
[00:20.88] To avoid abuse
[00:22.21] And every time I fell
[00:23.01] I would blame it on myself
[00:24.34] Even if it was an accident
[00:27.09] Maybe it's not what I want
[00:30.32] Oh I've seen better days
[00:32.73] And the moment fucking sucks
[00:36.34] But I'll be damned if I don't stop
[00:39.34] And, honestly, why not
[00:41.46] When nobody gives a fuck
[00:44.38] But sometimes I just can't help myself
[00:48.49] I wanna give up trying
[00:50.88] And start doing something else
[00:53.36] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[00:57.81] I know it's in my mind
[00:59.68] But I think I need some help
[01:02.36] Cuz sometimes I just can't help myself
[01:05.04] I was an outcast
[01:06.50] Thrown out to dry and get laughed at
[01:09.03] Too shy to talk about home
[01:10.70] I always thought life was supposed to be cold
[01:12.65] And oh I've been so
[01:15.30] Lost without hope
[01:17.70] I got a window in my head, it's a casket
[01:19.88] You know I been wishing I was dead, but I mask it
[01:22.28] Maybe it's not what I want
[01:25.00] Oh I've seen better days
[01:27.39] And the moment fucking sucks
[01:30.87] But I'll be damned if I don't stop
[01:34.16] And, honestly, why not
[01:36.32] When nobody gives a fuck
[01:38.98] But sometimes I just can't help myself
[01:43.23] I wanna give up trying
[01:45.65] And start doing something else
[01:48.05] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[01:52.65] I know it's in my mind
[01:54.78] But I think I need some help
[01:58.50] Because it's all I know
[02:00.16] My hands around my throat
[02:02.38] Pray that I won't let go
[02:04.54] This time around
[02:07.17] But every single time
[02:09.36] I try to shut my eyes
[02:11.50] I see the reason why
[02:13.93] I'm not alone
[02:15.62] Sometimes I just can't but sometimes I just can't help myself
[02:22.65] I wanna give up trying
[02:24.58] And start doing something else
[02:26.97] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[02:31.83] I know it's in my mind
[02:33.52] But I think I need some help
[02:36.18] Sometimes I just can't help myself
