Understand

[00:00.32] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:02.44] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:04.83] Wanted to be your man back then

[00:07.76] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:11.74] Just broke my heart in two

[00:13.33] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:15.99] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:18.12] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:19.45] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:22.64] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:25.02] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:27.41] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:29.80] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:31.93] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:34.32] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not -

[00:36.71] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:39.63] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:45.21] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[00:49.99] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[00:52.65] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[00:55.57] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:59.02] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:00.61] Wanted to be your man back then

[01:03.02] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.54] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:09.66] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:12.07] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.19] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:16.32] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:18.71] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:21.10] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:23.23] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:25.88] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:28.01] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:30.40] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:32.79] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:35.71] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.10] I said before I'm not okay

[01:40.22] But you don't listen anyway

[01:42.88] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:45.01] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:47.40] You - my life, ruined my day

[01:49.79] But you don't know, so I'll say

[01:51.65] Nothing can fill this silence

[01:54.31] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[01:56.69] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[01:58.82] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:01.21] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:03.60] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:05.72] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:08.12] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:10.26] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:12.91] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:15.31] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.55] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:21.68] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a - about me

[02:24.33] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:26.20] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:31.50] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:34.16] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:37.62] And you had known and played along, you

[02:40.27] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:42.93] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:45.32] Removed yourself outside my dreams