Popular Monster

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[00:05.82] I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze

[00:08.72] I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway

[00:11.62] Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

[00:14.53] I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah

[00:17.42] I battle with depression, but the question still remains

[00:20.34] Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?

[00:23.26] And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

[00:25.91] Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?

[00:29.34] Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day

[00:31.74] And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage

[00:34.86] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

[00:39.36] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out

[00:46.26] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

[00:49.15] I'm a popular, popular monster

[00:52.31] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

[01:01.06] I'm a popular, popular monster

[01:09.79] I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze

[01:12.70] Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace

[01:15.33] I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace

[01:18.23] How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?

[01:21.14] Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste

[01:24.07] Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take

[01:26.96] But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage

[01:29.92] Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay

[01:33.63] Motherfucker, now you got my attention

[01:35.72] I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing

[01:38.61] And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

[01:41.56] Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified

[01:45.52] I fell asleep at the wheel again

[01:47.91] Crashed my car just to feel again

[01:50.56] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

[01:55.07] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out

[02:02.02] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

[02:04.94] I'm a popular, popular monster

[02:07.84] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

[02:16.57] I'm a popular, popular fucking monster

[02:19.74] Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh

[02:31.41] We're sick and tired of wondering

[02:34.33] Praying to a god that you don't believe

[02:37.24] We're searching for the truth in the lost and found

[02:39.64] So the question I ask is

[02:41.47] Oh, where the fuck is your god now?

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[02:54.54] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out

[03:01.68] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

[03:04.59] I'm a popular, popular monster

[03:07.52] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart

[03:16.03] I'm not a popular, popular monster

[03:19.55] ....

[03:25.00] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

[03:27.94] I'm a popular, popular monster

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