Trauma
[00:30.97] Growing up I never had a lot of money
[00:32.83] I never had a phone
[00:33.62] Always was a little hungry
[00:34.96] Used to find it hard to sleep
[00:36.30] When I could hear my mother sobbing
[00:37.36] I was 10 back then
[00:39.22] I didn't have a room
[00:40.02] Had to buy used shoes
[00:41.34] I hid behind tunes
[00:42.41] To avoid abuse
[00:43.74] And every time I fell
[00:44.80] I would blame it on myself
[00:45.87] Even if it was an accident
[00:48.79] Maybe it's not what I want
[00:50.11] Oh, I've seen better days
[00:54.09] And the moment fucking sucks
[00:57.81] But I'll be damned if I don't stop
[01:01.27] And, honestly, why not
[01:03.13] When nobody gives a fuck
[01:05.52] But sometimes I just can't help myself
[01:10.30] I wanna give up trying
[01:12.69] And start doing something else
[01:14.81] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[01:19.61] I know it's in my mind
[01:21.47] But I think I need some help
[01:24.13] 'Cause sometimes I just can't help myself
[01:26.26] I was an outcast
[01:28.11] Thrown out to dry and get laughed at
[01:30.24] Too shy to talk about home
[01:31.83] I always thought life was supposed to be cold
[01:34.23] And, oh, I've been so
[01:36.88] Lost without hope
[01:39.26] I got a window in my head, it's a casket
[01:41.39] You know I been wishing I was dead, but I mask it
[01:43.78] Maybe it's not what I want
[01:47.23] Oh, I've seen better days
[01:48.82] And the moment fucking sucks
[01:52.82] But I'll be damned if I don't stop
[01:56.01] And, honestly, why not
[01:57.86] When nobody gives a fuck
[02:00.52] But sometimes I just can't help myself
[02:05.03] I wanna give up trying
[02:07.43] And start doing something else
[02:10.34] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[02:14.33] I know it's in my mind
[02:16.19] But I think I need some help
[02:19.12] Because it's all I know
[02:21.77] My hands around my throat
[02:24.16] Pray that I won't let go
[02:26.28] This time around
[02:28.68] But every single time
[02:31.06] I try to shut my eyes
[02:33.19] I see the reason why
[02:35.85] I'm not alone
[02:37.18] Sometimes I just can't but sometimes I just can't help myself
[02:40.89] I wanna give up trying
[02:46.22] And start doing something else
[02:48.62] Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
[02:53.40] I know it's in my mind
[02:55.25] But I think I need some help
[02:57.90] Sometimes I just can't help myself
