the grudge
[00:14.79] I have nightmares each week about that Friday in May
[00:17.98] One phone call from you and my entire world was changed
[00:21.42] Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers
[00:25.43] You took everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers
[00:29.16] And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did
[00:32.35] But I hold on to every detail like my life depends on it
[00:36.33] My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge
[00:40.05] And I hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough
[00:43.51] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
[00:47.51] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
[00:51.22] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
[00:54.96] But you know I can't let it go
[00:57.08] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[01:02.13] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong
[01:09.84] The arguments that I have won against you in my head
[01:13.02] In the shower, in the car and in the mirror before bed
[01:16.22] Yeah, I'm so tough when I'm alone and I make you feel so guilty
[01:20.46] And I fantasize about a time you're a little fucking sorry
[01:24.18] And I try to understand why you would do this all to me
[01:27.65] You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy
[01:31.63] And I know in my heart hurt people hurt people
[01:35.61] And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal
[01:39.07] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
[01:42.79] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
[01:46.50] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
[01:50.22] But you know I can't let it go
[01:52.34] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[01:57.39] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong
[02:04.84] Ooh, do you think I deserved it all?
[02:12.59] Ooh, your flower's filled with vitriol
[02:19.23] You built me up to watch me fall
[02:22.95] You have everything and you still want more
[02:26.66] I try to be tough, I try to be mean
[02:30.65] But even after all this, you're still everything to me
[02:34.38] And I know you don't care, I guess that that's fine
[02:38.64] But you know I can't let it go
[02:41.28] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[02:46.08] It takes strength to forgive, but I'm not quite sure I'm there yet
[02:54.05] It takes strength to forgive, but
