Against_the_Kitchen_Floor

[00:08.42] I don't owe you my heart

[00:12.33] And I don't owe you my body

[00:15.97] But you should know that I'm sorry

[00:19.90] For being careless with you

[00:24.09] Lord knows I owe you more

[00:28.01] Than I'm pretty sure I ever could give anybody

[00:31.94] But I can't pin down what normal people want from foreign objects

[00:35.74] Bottom shelf erotic products like me

[00:40.78] So, I could hold your hand but keep you at arm's length

[00:45.26] Or hang me from a branch too high to climb and shake

[00:49.47] Less rare than scarce, less diamond than rough

[00:53.38] Unlikely to be more than just the coal you fail to crush, and

[00:57.85] I swear, I'm really trying

[01:09.06] It just don't come natural to me to think that you'd want me for me

[01:17.73] I swear, I'm really trying

[01:29.22] Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best

[01:33.14] I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet

[01:46.03] I still don't know who you are

[01:49.96] I only know that I'm still lonely

[01:53.88] That morbid sort where even company can't cure me

[01:57.25] And the more you reassure, the less I trust

[02:02.01] But still you gave me your heart

[02:05.94] I only gave you my body

[02:10.13] Honestly thought nobody'd want it, let alone notice it's gone

[02:14.06] And so I left it home, but now, now, now, now

[02:19.67] I keep a locket with a picture of the back of my head

[02:23.60] Oh, monkey-wrench my side view mirrors, ghost my friends

[02:27.25] I've lived more lives than enough, I haven't died quite as much

[02:31.17] But I'm not a real person, just the shit you can't make up, and

[02:35.64] I swear, I'm really trying

[02:46.55] I'm just as exposed if I take off my clothes

[02:49.92] When we make the closest thing to love that I'm capable of

[02:54.96] And I don't know why you would care

[03:02.24] But I'm really trying

[03:07.28] Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best

[03:11.19] I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet

[03:34.16] Did I really have any of that gravity?

[03:39.48] Maybe you're quicksand

[03:41.44] Because I really couldn't tell

[03:42.84] How deep my footprints went

[03:45.93] The vertex of my redemption arc

[03:47.61] The searching on that virgin heart

[03:49.58] I'm catatonic in your arms

[03:51.54] Crying, "How did I cause so much harm?"

[03:53.77] I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor

[03:57.13] Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours

[04:01.34] Don't say "I'm sorry, but this can't go on"

[04:03.58] I know you've got scars of your own

[04:05.81] But hide my knives before you go

[04:08.06] I'll either live or die alone

[04:11.70] I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress

[04:26.26] I promise, I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible

[04:31.85] I swear, I'm so fucking sorry

[04:42.78] I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all

[04:47.26] But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all

[04:52.31] And write a fucking song about it, cause

[04:55.94] God damn it

[04:59.58] Sorry

[05:01.82] Fuck, I'm sorry