Jake Hill u0026 Josh A Suicidal Thoughts 320kbs
[00:18.87] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
[00:19.87] I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[00:20.62] But every day I feel like dying
[00:23.12] Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[00:27.87] Why do I even try?
[00:29.87] Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
[00:32.88] Trying to find a new outlet
[00:34.87] The devil pouncin'
[00:35.62] I hear him howling, my vision clouded
[00:37.12] Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
[00:38.88] Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
[00:40.63] But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
[00:45.12] Gotta work till' I'm dead
[00:46.36] So that they get the best
[00:47.63] Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
[00:50.12] Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
[00:52.12] So fuck suicide I'm here to stay
[00:54.13] Try to free my mind
[00:55.87] I don't know what's right
[00:57.61] Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[01:00.63] Try to free my mind
[01:02.62] I don't know what's right
[01:04.37] Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[01:07.37] (nah, man)
[01:08.12] I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
[01:11.62] Gunning demons down find my way out of this hell now
[01:14.63] I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
[01:15.89] Gunning demons down, find my way out of this hell now
[01:21.87] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
[01:25.37] I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[01:27.88] But every day I feel like dying
[01:31.62] Every day I feel like dying dying...
[01:35.87] One too many bad thoughts inside me
[01:37.62] Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
[01:38.88] I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
[01:41.62] I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
[01:44.12] Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
[01:45.87] Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
[01:48.64] (Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
[01:50.62] Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
[01:52.87] Never meant to let you down
[01:54.38] I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
[01:55.87] (Fuck)
[01:56.62] Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
[01:58.87] I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
[02:01.88] But he called my bluff
[02:02.62] Try to free my mind
[02:06.12] I don't know what's right
[02:06.38] Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[02:08.12] Try to free my mind
[02:08.37] I don't know what's right
[02:12.87] Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[02:15.62] (nah, man)
[02:16.87] I'll be out here running, I'll be running from myself now
[02:20.12] Gunning demons down find my way out of this hell now
[02:23.62] I'll be running now, I'll be running from myself now
[02:26.63] Gunning demons down, find my way out of this hell now
[02:30.13] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
[02:33.38] I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[02:36.63] But every day I feel like dying
[02:40.63] Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[02:44.37] I'm not suicidal I don't wanna fucking die
[02:47.87] I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[02:52.62] But every day I feel like dying
[02:54.37] Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
