Feel Better

[00:09.31] I don't wanna feel better

[00:12.57] No one's ever gonna love me like that again

[00:15.06] I don't wanna get over you

[00:17.81] I wanna sit with you in bed

[00:20.31] I don't wanna feel better

[00:23.06] I'd give anything to miss you again

[00:25.81] I don't wanna get over it

[00:28.57] I wanna get under it instead

[00:32.31] A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets

[00:34.81] On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night when I get in it late

[00:37.06] And late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade

[00:39.06] And someone's breaking up when I crack up

[00:40.31] Because I know I'll never know just what to say

[00:43.06] I'm a communist, a terrorist, an MPDG thot

[00:45.56] Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of

[00:48.81] Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras

[00:51.06] Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost

[00:53.82] But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me

[00:56.31] Someone fucking loved me and I fuckin' loved them too

[00:58.81] Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something

[01:02.06] I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no)

[01:09.06] I don't wanna feel better

[01:24.31] We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed

[01:32.06] And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad

[01:35.06] But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again

[01:37.81] The sun has began to set

[01:40.56] I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut

[01:43.32] I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed

[01:46.31] But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all

[01:48.82] I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small

[01:51.56] 'Cause someone loved me, someone fucking loved me

[01:53.81] Someone fucking loved me, I loved them too

[01:56.31] Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' earned something

[01:59.56] I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too

[02:02.81] And God, no!

[02:04.06] Of course I don't wanna feel better!

[02:10.82] Can you fucking imagine?!

[02:16.06] No one's ever gonna love me like that again

[02:18.32] I don't wanna get over it

[02:21.06] I wanna rip the stars to shreds

[02:26.06] I don't wanna feel better

[02:35.56] Of course it hurt, of course it fuckin' hurt

[02:37.31] It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes

[02:39.06] That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck

[02:41.56] And also somehow making it

[02:43.31] I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again

[02:46.31] I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine

[02:49.06] Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease

[02:51.81] But when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart

[02:54.06] And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart

[02:57.31] 'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me

[02:59.81] All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

[03:02.07] Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something

[03:05.57] And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

[03:11.07] I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you

[03:13.56] All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

[03:16.06] And now you're over there, and I'm way over here

[03:22.56] What am I gonna do?

[03:49.06] I don't wanna feel better

[03:51.81] No one's ever gonna love me like that again

[03:54.31] I don't wanna get over you

[03:57.06] I wanna sit with you in bed

[04:06.81] I don't wanna feel better