Understand

[00:02.97] Girl, I hope you understand I

[00:12.27] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[00:14.92] Wanted to be your man back then

[00:18.91] And you knew I fell for you, but you

[00:21.57] Just broke my heart in two

[00:23.69] I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

[00:26.09] Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:28.47] I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:30.86] When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead

[00:32.99] And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat

[00:35.12] I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"

[00:37.50] So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence

[00:39.63] And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end

[00:41.75] Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?

[00:43.61] You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not -

[00:46.80] I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did

[00:50.78] I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived

[00:55.30] They were my neighbors; razor blades and different flavored pills I hid

[01:00.35] Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw

[01:02.74] I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[01:05.92] Girl, I hope you understand I

[01:08.31] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[01:10.70] Wanted to be your man back then

[01:15.22] And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:17.35] So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:20.53] Instead, filled with anxiety

[01:22.13] Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:24.26] Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking

[01:26.64] Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:28.77] Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming

[01:31.16] Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying

[01:33.28] I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back

[01:35.68] To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as

[01:38.06] Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:40.46] On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

[01:42.85] Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray

[01:45.51] I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:48.42] I said before I'm not okay

[01:50.55] But you don't listen anyway

[01:52.68] You know I tried, you turned away

[01:55.06] Straight out lied right to my face

[01:57.45] You - my life, ruined my day

[01:59.85] But you don't know, so I'll say

[02:01.97] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:04.10] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:06.49] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:08.88] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:14.46] Nothing can fill this silence

[02:15.26] No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)

[02:18.17] Nobody cares, you lied, it's

[02:18.72] Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

[02:19.24] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:22.95] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:25.35] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:29.86] And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:31.99] Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a - about me

[02:34.91] This could be a dream, I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[02:38.89] Girl, I hope you understand I

[02:41.55] Wanted to hold your hand, but I can't

[02:44.20] Wanted to be your man back then

[02:48.45] And you had known and played along, you

[02:50.85] Were my home, I wrote you songs

[02:52.98] Now you're dead to me, effectively

[02:55.36] Removed yourself outside my dreams