The grudge
[00:13.68] I have nightmares each week about that Friday in May
[00:17.38] One phone call from you and my entire world was changed
[00:21.10] Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers
[00:24.83] You took everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers
[00:28.86] And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did
[00:32.04] But I hold on to every detail like my life depends on it
[00:36.35] My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge
[00:39.79] And I hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough
[00:43.24] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
[00:47.22] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
[00:50.94] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
[00:54.94] But you know I can't let it go
[00:56.80] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[01:02.12] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong
[01:09.29] The arguments that I have won against you in my head
[01:12.74] In the shower, in the car and in the mirror before bed
[01:15.93] Yeah, I'm so tough when I'm alone and I make you feel so guilty
[01:19.91] And I fantasize about a time you're a little fucking sorry
[01:23.91] And I try to understand why you would do this all to me
[01:27.37] You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy
[01:31.09] And I know in my heart hurt people hurt people
[01:35.08] And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal
[01:38.79] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
[01:42.25] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?
[01:46.23] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
[01:49.95] But you know I can't let it go
[01:52.07] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[01:57.12] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong
[02:04.55] Ooh, do you think I deserved it all?
[02:12.26] Ooh, your flower's filled with vitriol
[02:18.90] You built me up to watch me fall
[02:22.62] You have everything and you still want more
[02:27.13] I try to be tough, I try to be mean
[02:30.32] But even after all this, you're still everything to me
[02:34.04] And I know you don't care, I guess that that's fine
[02:38.03] But you know I can't let it go
[02:40.15] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
[02:45.46] It takes strength to forgive, but I'm not quite sure I'm there yet
[02:53.16] It takes strength to forgive, but
