the grudge

[00:13.59] I have nightmares each week about that Friday in May

[00:17.33] One phone call from you and my entire world was changed

[00:21.32] Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers

[00:24.78] You took everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers

[00:28.49] And I doubt you ever think about the damage that you did

[00:32.21] But I hold on to every detail like my life depends on it

[00:36.19] My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge

[00:39.65] And I hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough

[00:43.36] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream

[00:47.08] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?

[00:50.80] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine

[00:55.05] But you know I can't let it go

[00:57.71] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long

[01:01.95] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong

[01:09.39] The arguments that I have won against you in my head

[01:12.31] In the shower, in the car and in the mirror before bed

[01:16.04] Yeah, I'm so tough when I'm alone and I make you feel so guilty

[01:18.18] And I fantasize about a time you're a little fucking sorry

[01:23.76] And I try to understand why you would do this all to me

[01:27.47] You must be insecure, you must be so unhappy

[01:32.25] And I know in my heart hurt people hurt people

[01:35.19] And we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal

[01:38.91] And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream

[01:42.36] How could anybody do the things you did so easily?

[01:46.08] And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine

[01:50.06] But you know I can't let it go

[01:52.46] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long

[01:57.24] It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel strong

[02:04.14] Ooh, do you think I deserved it all?

[02:11.58] Ooh, your flower's filled with vitriol

[02:19.03] You built me up to watch me fall

[02:22.49] You have everything and you still want more

[02:26.74] I try to be tough, I try to be mean

[02:30.72] But even after all this, you're still everything to me

[02:34.17] And I know you don't care, I guess that that's fine

[02:38.16] But you know I can't let it go

[02:40.03] I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long

[02:45.61] It takes strength to forgive, but I'm not quite sure I'm there yet

[02:53.05] It takes strength to forgive, but