Alexander Stewart - if you only knew (visualizer)_SwDlodsNcIo

[00:13.86] I've been trying so hard to survive

[00:17.58] Sometimes I think that I wanna die

[00:21.30] I feel so fucking guilty cuz god I'm so lucky

[00:25.55] To live my life

[00:28.99] So I keep all the pain to myself

[00:32.72] Losing faith but nobody can tell

[00:36.70] Mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me

[00:40.41] So I pretend I'm fine

[00:43.61] If you only knew

[00:45.73] What my mind is telling me I should do

[00:49.71] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[00:53.43] I'm too sad to cry, it's true

[00:57.69] If you only knew

[01:00.87] All the shit my brain is putting me through

[01:04.59] You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight

[01:08.31] I'm sorry but I need you

[01:13.35] If you only knew

[01:16.27] I wish I was somebody else

[01:19.73] I'm constantly overwhelmed

[01:23.46] Now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends

[01:27.17] It's a silent cry for help

[01:30.62] I wanna get better, I want you to know

[01:34.34] That I can't do this on my own

[01:38.06] If you only knew

[01:40.19] What my mind is telling me I should do

[01:44.16] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[01:47.63] I'm too sad to cry, it's true

[01:52.92] If you only knew

[01:55.32] All the shit my brain is putting me through

[01:59.05] You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight

[02:03.02] I'm sorry but I need you

[02:07.81] Take me out of this hell

[02:10.72] Oh, somebody help

[02:14.98] Take me out of this hell

[02:18.16] Oh, I'm not myself

[02:23.48] I wanna tell you

[02:25.33] What my mind is telling me I should do

[02:29.07] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[02:32.78] I'm too sad to cry but I want to

[02:37.02] Oh, if you only knew