Therapy Session

[00:05.14] "Therapy Session"

[00:22.20] Yeah..

[00:23.26] I got off stage

[00:24.10] Like a month ago

[00:25.70] I was talking to fans

[00:27.03] And one of 'em

[00:27.56] Pulled me aside and said

[00:28.62] "We never met,

[00:29.72] But I swear that

[00:30.25] You know who I am

[00:31.34] I've been through a lot

[00:32.41] I don't know

[00:32.95] How to express it to people,

[00:34.56] Don't think that I can

[00:35.63] But I got that

[00:36.42] Mansion CD on rotation

[00:37.81] That's real for me,

[00:38.60] Nate, you do not understand"

[00:40.01] It's crazy for me

[00:41.33] Kids hit me up,

[00:42.13] Say they slittin' they wrists

[00:42.98] On the daily

[00:44.04] This music

[00:44.61] Is more than you think

[00:45.68] Don't book me for

[00:46.01] Just entertainment,

[00:47.34] It's entertainin'

[00:48.40] Hearin' these parents,

[00:49.19] They telling their kids

[00:50.52] My music is violent—

[00:51.59] You gotta be kidding me

[00:52.65] I guess that

[00:53.20] Your definition of violence

[00:54.79] And mine

[00:55.59] Is something that

[00:56.16] We look at differently

[00:57.22] How do you picture me, huh?

[00:58.81] Want me to smile?

[01:00.14] You want me to laugh?

[01:01.47] You want me to walk

[01:02.27] On the stage

[01:02.80] With a smile on my face

[01:03.87] When I'm mad

[01:04.44] And put on a mask?

[01:05.53] For real though..

[01:07.20] I mean, what you

[01:07.78] Expect from me?

[01:08.57] I'm tryna do this

[01:09.37] Respectfully

[01:10.17] They say that life is a race

[01:11.49] I knew my problems would prolly

[01:13.35] Catch up eventually

[01:14.42] I do my best to be calm

[01:16.27] How you gon' write me

[01:17.37] And tell me

[01:17.91] You'd slaughter my family?

[01:18.97] That's just a glimpse

[01:19.82] To the stuff that gets sent to me

[01:21.15] These are the parts of my life

[01:22.21] They don't never see, woo!

[01:24.33] I am aware, it's aggressive

[01:26.19] I am not here for acceptance

[01:27.79] I don't know what you expected

[01:29.11] But what you expect when

[01:30.23] You walk in a therapy session,

[01:31.84] Huh?

[01:33.69] Therapy..

[01:35.81] Therapy session

[01:42.19] Therapy..

[01:44.58] Therapy session

[01:50.25] This girl at the show

[01:51.31] Looked me in the face

[01:52.64] And told me her life's

[01:53.43] Full of drama (Yeah!)

[01:55.29] Said her dad is abusive

[01:56.36] Apparently, he likes

[01:57.42] To beat on her mama

[01:59.28] I got so angry inside

[02:00.61] I wanted to tell her

[02:01.95] To give me his number

[02:03.54] But what you gon'

[02:04.07] Do with it, right?

[02:04.89] You gon' hit him up then

[02:06.00] He'll start hittin' her harder

[02:07.06] That's real..

[02:08.39] These kids

[02:08.92] They come to my shows

[02:09.98] With tears in they eyes

[02:11.31] 'Magine someone looking at you

[02:12.64] And sayin' your music's the reason

[02:14.50] That they are alive

[02:15.56] Sometimes I don't know

[02:16.36] How to handle it

[02:17.42] This type of life

[02:17.98] Isn't glamorous

[02:18.78] This ain't an act

[02:19.84] For the cameras (Nah!)

[02:20.64] You see me

[02:21.17] Walk on these stages

[02:22.01] But have no idea

[02:23.07] What I'm dealing with after it, nah!

[02:24.67] I put it all

[02:24.97] In the open

[02:26.05] This is the way

[02:26.85] That I cope with..

[02:27.69] All my emotion

[02:28.76] I'm taking pictures

[02:29.81] With thousands of people

[02:30.88] But honestly, I feel like

[02:31.94] Nobody knows me

[02:33.00] I'm tryin' to deal

[02:33.80] With depression

[02:34.60] I'm tryin' to deal

[02:35.39] With the pressure

[02:36.19] How you gon' tell me

[02:37.29] My music does not have a message

[02:38.88] When I'm lookin' out at

[02:39.94] This crowd full of people

[02:41.31] I know I affected? Agh!

[02:43.22] I got some things

[02:43.74] In my life (My life)

[02:45.40] I know I should let 'em go

[02:46.73] (Let 'em go)

[02:47.87] Let me jot it down

[02:48.93] (Jot it down)

[02:49.46] Let me take a mental note

[02:50.54] (Mental note)

[02:51.10] I put it all in this microphone

[02:52.71] (Microphone)

[02:53.80] Think about that for a minute

[02:55.40] What is the point of this song?

[02:56.73] I'm just ventin'

[02:57.52] But what you expect

[02:58.36] From a therapy session, huh?

[03:01.02] Therapy..

[03:03.14] Therapy session

[03:09.52] Therapy..

[03:11.91] Therapy session

[03:18.09] What you think about me

[03:19.95] —That doesn't worry me

[03:21.01] I know I handle

[03:22.07] Some things immaturely

[03:23.13] I know that I need

[03:24.19] To grow in maturity

[03:25.53] I ain't gon' walk

[03:26.32] On these stages,

[03:27.12] In front of these people

[03:27.92] And act like

[03:28.73] I live my life perfectly

[03:29.83] That doesn't work for me

[03:31.42] "Christian" is not the

[03:32.48] Definition of what

[03:33.33] "perfect" means, woo!

[03:35.50] I ain't the type to be quiet

[03:36.82] I ain't gon'

[03:37.41] Sit here in silence

[03:38.47] If I wouldn't say

[03:39.27] What I say to your face

[03:40.39] Then I promise you,

[03:41.19] I wouldn't say it in private

[03:43.05] I am not lyin'

[03:44.11] People go off on my page,

[03:45.44] And I'm tryin'

[03:45.97] To quit the replyin'

[03:47.04] But this is ridiculous!!!

[03:48.67] I'm passionate, man,

[03:50.00] I really mean what I'm writing

[03:51.33] You want me

[03:52.13] To keep it a hundred?

[03:53.19] Okay, I'll keep it a hundred

[03:55.05] I see a whole lot

[03:55.84] Of talkin' on socials

[03:56.91] But honestly, I don't see

[03:57.97] Nothing in public

[03:59.29] I kinda love it

[04:00.36] Yeah..

[04:01.47] "Why don't you write us

[04:02.26] Some happy raps?

[04:03.86] That would be awesome"

[04:04.92] "All of your music

[04:05.72] Is moody and dark, Nate"

[04:07.85] —Don't get me started

[04:08.94] (Yeah!) 😑

[04:10.83] You wanna know

[04:11.63] What it's like

[04:12.16] If you met me in person?

[04:13.23] Listen to my verses

[04:14.30] This music is not just for people

[04:15.90] Who sit in the pews

[04:17.29] And pray at the churches, nah!

[04:18.88] I won't reject it

[04:19.95] I don't expect

[04:20.76] Everyone to respect it

[04:22.09] I don't expect you

[04:23.15] To get my perspective

[04:24.21] But what you expect

[04:25.27] From a therapy session?

[04:26.60] Huh?

[04:31.43] I mean,

[04:34.62] I think sometimes people—

[04:36.54] They confuse what I'm doin'

[04:39.46] I write about life,

[04:40.79] I write about things

[04:41.89] That I'm actually dealing with

[04:44.29] Something that I'm

[04:45.35] Actually experiencing

[04:46.73] This is real for me

[04:48.37] Like, this is something that

[04:49.43] Personally helps me as well

[04:51.56] I'm not confused

[04:52.66] About who gave me the gift

[04:53.72] God gave me the gift

[04:54.80] And He gave me the ability to—

[04:56.39] To do this

[04:56.93] And He also gave me this

[04:58.31] As an outlet

[04:59.37] And that's what music is for me

[05:00.98] When I feel something,

[05:02.04] Whether it's anger

[05:03.41] Um, it's a passion

[05:04.74] About something—

[05:05.54] Or frustration

[05:06.34] Like, this is where I go

[05:07.66] This is—

[05:08.46] This is—that's the whole

[05:10.11] "NF Real Music" thing, man

[05:11.70] This is real for me—

[05:12.77] I need this

[05:13.56] This is a therapy for me 🙂

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