Difficult

[00:00.37] "Difficult"

[00:01.43] They ask me am I okay, they ask me if I'm happy

[00:03.82] Are they asking me that be

[00:05.41] Cause of the shit that's been thrown at me?

[00:07.54] Or am I just a little snappy and they genuinely care?

[00:10.20] Doody, most of my life it's just been me and you there

[00:13.38] And I continuously stare at pictures of you

[00:16.03] I never got to say I love you as much as I wanted to, but I do

[00:20.02] Yeah, I say it now when you can't hear me

[00:22.41] What the fuck good does that do me now?

[00:24.55] But somehow I know you're near me in presence

[00:26.94] Oh, I went and dropped some presents off for Easter

[00:29.32] To them two little beautiful boys of yours to try to ease their

[00:32.78] Minds a little, and dog, you'll never believe this

[00:35.96] But Sharonda actually talks to me now — Jesus!

[00:39.15] And everyone else is just tryin' to pick up the pieces

[00:42.07] Man, how could you touch so many fuckin' lives and just leave us?

[00:45.25] They say grievance has a way of affectin' everyone different

[00:48.44] If it's true, how the fuck am I supposed to get over you?

[00:51.63] Difficult as it sounds

[01:17.94] "Doody" — that's what we'd call each other

[01:20.07] I don't know where it came from

[01:21.94] But it just stuck with us; we was always brothers

[01:24.32] Never thought about each other's skin colors

[01:27.24] 'Til one day we was walkin' up the block in the summer

[01:30.43] It was like 90 degrees, I was catchin' a sunburn

[01:33.62] Tryin' to walk under the trees just to give me some comfort

[01:36.81] I'm moanin', I just wanna get home and

[01:38.93] I look over, and your shirt is off

[01:40.52] I'm like, "You're gonna fry," you're like, "No, I won't

[01:42.91] I'm black, stupid! And black people, they got melatonin

[01:46.37] In their skin — we don’t burn," meanwhile my face is glowin'

[01:49.56] And I feel like I'm on fire

[01:51.42] And the entire time you're just laughin' at me

[01:54.07] And snappin' at me with your shirt, bastard

[01:56.46] And I still have to get you back for that shit

[01:59.11] And by the way, them Playboy rings my mother stole from you

[02:02.31] Well, Nate finally got 'em back, shit

[02:04.17] It must've been at least sixteen years ago

[02:06.82] Well, I put 'em in your cask— oww

[02:09.21] Movin' past it, it still ain't registered yet

[02:11.60] But you can bet, your legacy they'll never forget

[02:14.52] The Motor City, Motown, hip hop vet

[02:17.71] Hip Hop Shop, dreads, it don't stop there

[02:20.63] Yeah, as difficult as it sounds

[02:47.47] And this might sound a little strange, but I'ma tell it

[02:49.58] I found that jacket that you left at my wedding

[02:52.24] And I picked it up to smell it

[02:53.57] I wrapped it up in plastic until I put it in glass

[02:56.76] And hang up in the hallway so I can always look at it

[02:59.95] And as for all me and D12 we feel like "Fuck rap!"

[03:03.13] It feels like our general just fuckin' died in our lap

[03:06.05] We shut off all our pagers, all our cell numbers is changed

[03:09.25] Our two-ways are in the trash

[03:11.10] So some cats will have to find a new way

[03:12.96] And I know it feels like the dreams will die with you today

[03:15.89] But the truth is they're all still here, and you ain't

[03:19.60] Purple Gang, you gotta keep pressin' on

[03:21.99] Don't ever give up the dream, dog, I got love for you all

[03:25.18] And Doody, it's true you brought people together

[03:27.84] Who never woulda been in the same room if it wasn't for you

[03:31.29] You were the peacemaker, Doody

[03:33.68] I know sometimes you were moody

[03:35.27] But you hated confrontation and truly hated the feuding

[03:38.73] But you was down for yours whenever it came to scrappin'

[03:41.38] If it had to happen, it had to happen

[03:43.77] Believe me, I know you're the one who taught me to throw them bows back on Dresden

[03:48.02] From eggin' cars to paintballin' and gettin' arrested

[03:50.96] To sittin' across from each other in cells, laughin' and jestin'

[03:54.67] They tried to hit us for five years for that, no question

[03:57.34] I guess them hookers and bums that we shot up didn't show up for court

[04:01.05] So we got off on a technicality, left sweatin'

[04:03.98] Me, you and… what's his face? I forgot his fuckin' name

[04:07.16] Shame he even came to your funeral, he betrayed our team

[04:10.62] And if I see him again I'ma punch him in the fuckin' face

[04:13.55] And that’s on Hailie Jade, Whitney Laine and Alaina’s name

[04:16.75] I'll let the pistol bang once just to lick a shot

[04:20.20] In the air for you, and pour some liquor out

[04:22.85] With Obie in the parking lot of 54 just before

[04:26.05] We were supposed to get in cars to come and see you once more

[04:29.50] Difficult as it sounds