HAPPY

[00:04.46] Dear God, please, hear me out

[00:10.57] I know it's been a couple years

[00:14.56] Since I've reached out and said hello

[00:20.40] I bet You're wondering

[00:23.59] Why I keep

[00:26.51] Obsessing on and stressing all the little things

[00:32.09] When I should be

[00:36.34] Living life and soaking up the memories

[00:40.59] I know I've been selfish, I have

[00:45.90] No excuse to give you, it's true

[00:49.89] Hanging by a thread's how I live

[00:54.67] I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable

[00:59.18] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[01:04.23] Go up in flames, acting like I don't

[01:07.95] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[01:13.26] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[01:16.98] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[01:21.76] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[01:26.01] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[01:30.79] Who I'd be if I was happy

[01:35.04] Yeah, been this way so long

[01:36.90] It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed

[01:39.03] I got some issues that I won't address

[01:41.17] I got some baggage I ain't opened yet

[01:43.56] I got some demons I should put to rest

[01:46.16] I got some traumas that I can't forget

[01:48.25] I got some phone calls I been avoiding

[01:50.43] Some family members I don't really connect with

[01:52.59] Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip

[01:54.88] Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips

[01:57.27] Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet

[01:59.23] Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes

[02:01.62] I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul

[02:04.01] And the last to admit I need a hand to hold

[02:06.13] Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road

[02:08.53] Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm

[02:11.72] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[02:17.03] Go up in flames acting, like I don't

[02:20.48] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[02:26.06] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[02:29.51] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[02:34.03] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[02:38.27] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[02:43.59] Who I'd be if I was happy

[02:47.57] Don't know what's around the bend

[02:53.68] Don't know what my future is

[02:57.93] But I can't keep on living in

[03:05.37] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[03:11.21] Go up in flames acting, like I don't

[03:14.93] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[03:20.24] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[03:24.23] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[03:28.21] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[03:32.99] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[03:37.77] Who I'd be if I was happy

[03:49.20] If I was happy

[03:58.23] If I was happy