If You Only Knew

[00:13.71] I've been tryin' so hard to survive

[00:17.15] Sometimes I think that I wanna die

[00:20.87] I feel so fucking guilty 'cause God, I'm so lucky to live my life

[00:27.78] So I keep all the pain to myself

[00:32.03] Losin' faith, but nobody can tell

[00:35.48] Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me

[00:40.00] So I pretend I'm fine

[00:43.19] If you only knew

[00:45.58] What my mind is tellin' me I should do

[00:48.76] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[00:52.48] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

[00:58.33] If you only knew

[01:00.72] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through

[01:03.64] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

[01:07.36] I'm sorry, but I need you, oh

[01:13.47] If you only knew

[01:16.39] I wish I was somebody else

[01:19.04] I'm constantly overwhelmed

[01:22.76] Now I'm falling again, gettin' drunk with some friends

[01:26.75] It's a silent cry for help

[01:29.94] I wanna get better, I want you to know

[01:33.92] That I can't do this on my own

[01:37.64] If you only knew

[01:40.03] What my mind is tellin' me I should do

[01:43.22] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[01:47.47] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh

[01:52.78] If you only knew

[01:54.90] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through

[01:58.09] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight

[02:01.81] I'm sorry, but I need you, oh

[02:07.39] Take me outta this hell

[02:11.11] Oh, somebody help

[02:15.10] Take me outta this hell

[02:18.02] Oh, I'm not myself

[02:22.79] I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do

[02:28.64] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight

[02:34.22] I'm too sad to cry, but I want to

[02:37.40] Oh, if you only knew