Mansion

[00:00.78] Insidious is blind inception

[00:03.44] What's reality with all these questions?

[00:06.37] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[00:13.29] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[00:16.19] These walls are my blank expression

[00:19.12] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[00:22.31] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[00:31.62] Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place

[00:36.39] There's songs in the mirrors, written all over the floors, all over the chairs

[00:41.18] And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs

[00:44.36] That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release

[00:47.55] And let out the version of NF you don't want to see

[00:50.46] I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed

[00:53.92] You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me

[00:56.86] Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in

[01:00.30] That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it

[01:03.49] And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em

[01:06.67] But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em

[01:10.13] I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

[01:13.05] Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground

[01:16.24] Matter of fact, I think I'ma burn this room right now

[01:19.43] So now this memory for some reason just won't come down

[01:22.88] You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes

[01:25.80] Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried

[01:29.00] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[01:32.19] But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

[01:35.91] Insidious is blind inception

[01:39.63] What's reality with all these questions?

[01:42.54] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[01:47.60] And slept in

[01:49.19] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[01:52.12] These walls are my blank expression

[01:55.30] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[01:58.75] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[02:03.00] Inside this mansion

[02:04.33] Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

[02:07.52] See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint

[02:10.71] Cover 'em up, like it never happened

[02:12.56] Say I wish I could change, are you confused?

[02:14.95] Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean

[02:17.09] This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller, it seems

[02:20.28] The moment I walk into it is the same moment that I wanna leave

[02:23.18] I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things

[02:26.67] But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep

[02:30.10] I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls

[02:33.03] Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom

[02:36.22] And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called

[02:39.68] But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song

[02:42.87] And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am

[02:45.77] And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can

[02:49.24] Shrug it off like it ain't nothing, like it's out of my hands

[02:52.15] Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans

[02:55.61] And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive

[02:58.52] And at the rate I'm going, they'll probably still be there when I die

[03:01.99] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[03:04.91] The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?

[03:09.42] Insidious is blind inception

[03:12.34] What's reality with all these questions?

[03:15.26] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[03:20.58] And slept in

[03:21.91] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[03:24.83] These walls are my blank expression

[03:28.03] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[03:31.22] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[03:35.72] Inside this mansion

[03:37.31] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years

[03:40.23] I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

[03:43.43] 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back

[03:47.66] And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

[03:51.13] So I just leave my doors locked

[03:52.98] You might get other doors to open up but this door's not

[03:55.91] 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me

[03:58.83] And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me

[04:02.02] I'm barricaded inside so stop watching

[04:05.21] I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking

[04:08.40] I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in

[04:12.64] I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience

[04:15.83] I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem

[04:19.02] But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em

[04:21.95] I built it because I thought that it was safer in there

[04:25.14] But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here

[04:28.05] Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in

[04:31.24] Maybe that's the problem, 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since

[04:34.68] I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did

[04:37.61] He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in

[04:41.07] Now I'm in the position, it's either sit here and let him win

[04:44.25] Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can

[04:47.70] 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors

[04:50.89] Is that me or the fear talking?

[04:52.75] I don't know anymore

[05:08.42] Lonely (lonely) it's lonely

[05:11.60] Oh yeah, it's lonely

[05:18.24] Inside this mansion