06 Collapse And Appear

[04:27.85] I fell apart and took my mind with me

[04:30.11] I have been barely sustaining

[04:31.86] My pain just marinating

[04:33.62] I fell apart and took my mind with me

[04:35.87] Just a ghost cloaked in lies with a broken spine

[04:38.63] Fell apart and took my mind with me

[04:40.88] Just an unrecognizable creature, caught under an avalanche

[04:44.64] Fell apart and took my mind with me

[04:46.89] My presence unnerving, I'm a shadow always lurking

[04:49.90] Surrounded by death

[04:51.16] Even the towel rack reminds me of the handles pallbearers grip tightly on the way out of church

[04:56.67] What they use to lift you up into the back of that hearse

[04:59.92] I see a woman tighten grip on her purse

[05:02.18] Can’t be offended, she doesn't know my intentions

[05:05.44] She imagines the worst

[05:06.94] Around here, the conditions severe

[05:09.44] Around here, you tightrope between detachment and fear

[05:12.95] Between the shattered fragments of existence that collapse and appear

[05:16.96] Never changes, just exacerbates depression deeper year after year

[05:21.47] Pain weaving in, pain weaving out

[05:23.72] Heartworms, sharp turns, sparse words, scars, burns

[05:28.48] I spent a long time dying, don't wake me up yet

[05:31.74] Public executions, you’ll never see me upset

[05:34.99] Force-fed myself with blow, but now I settle for sedatives

[05:38.75] No longer in the streets, I belong in the crevices

[05:42.01] Positively negative, popular I've never been

[05:45.77] Hard to be a person when you lack the mental requisites

[05:48.53] Emotionally deficit, consumed with all the wretchedness

[05:52.53] Not optimist or pessimist, my politics are in exodus

[05:55.79] Spouting countless fountains out while drowning in the brine

[05:59.29] My life's the foulest algorithm science can't define

[06:02.80] They trap you in these systems that are phallic in design

[06:06.31] Because they fuck you in the mind

[06:07.81] Boy, they fuck you all the time

[06:10.06] I fell apart and took my mind with me

[06:12.32] Being strung up at the ligaments with cultural derivatives

[06:15.32] Fell apart and took my mind with me

[06:17.83] Pronounced dead by a nemesis, a doubt without a benefit

[06:21.33] I fell apart and took my mind with me

[06:24.09] Just a cluster of atoms thrust deep in a chasm

[06:26.60] I feel apart, and now your mind is with me

[06:29.35] Smoke in your eyes, the world's a joke in disguise