FEAR.

[00:13.74] What's up family, yeah it's yo cousin Carl man, just given' you a call man

[00:17.50] I know you been havin' a lot on yo mind lately

[00:19.89] And I know you feel like ya know people ain't been prayin' for you

[00:22.55] But you have to understand this man, that we are a cursed people

[00:26.29] Deuteronomy 28:28 says

[00:28.69] "The Lord shall smite thee with madness, and blindness

[00:31.88] And astonishment of heart."

[00:33.21] See family that's why you feel like

[00:35.60] You feel like you got a chip on your shoulder

[00:37.46] Until you finally get the memo, you will always feel that way

[00:38.59] Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

[00:41.24] Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle

[00:44.43] Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?

[00:47.62] Every stone thrown at you restin' at my feet

[00:50.81] Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

[00:54.00] Earth is no more, why don't you burn this mufucka?

[01:25.95] I beat yo' ass, keep talkin' back

[01:27.55] I beat yo' ass, who bought you that?

[01:29.41] You stole it, I beat yo' ass if you say that game is broken

[01:32.33] I beat yo' ass if you jump on my couch

[01:34.48] I beat yo' ass if you walk in this house with tears in your eyes

[01:37.67] Runnin' from poopoo and 'prentice

[01:39.53] Go back outside, I beat yo' ass, lil nigga

[01:41.65] That homework better be finished, I beat yo' ass

[01:44.32] Yo' teachers better not be bitchin' 'bout you in class

[01:46.70] That pizza better not be wasted, you eat it all

[01:49.10] That TV better not be loud if you got it on

[01:51.48] Them Jordans better not get dirty when I just bought 'em

[01:54.14] Better not hear 'bout you humpin' on Keisha's daughter

[01:56.26] Better not hear you got caught up, I beat yo' ass

[01:58.66] You better not run to your father, I beat yo' ass

[02:01.04] You know my patience runnin' thin

[02:02.91] I got beaucoup payments to make

[02:04.23] County building's on my ass

[02:05.83] Tryna take my food stamps away

[02:07.43] I beat yo' ass if you tell them social workers he live here

[02:10.89] I beat yo' ass if I beat yo' ass twice and you still here

[02:13.81] Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself?

[02:16.99] Nigga, you gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else

[02:20.45] If I can smoke fear away, I roll that motherfucker up

[02:25.23] And then I take two puffs

[02:30.02] I'm high now, I'm high now

[02:33.23] I'm high now, I'm high now

[02:36.66] Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now

[02:42.78] I'll prolly die anonymous

[02:44.38] I'll prolly die with promises

[02:46.23] I'll prolly die walkin' back home from the candy house

[02:49.16] I'll prolly die 'cause these colors are standin' out

[02:52.34] I'll prolly die because I ain't know Demarcus was snitchin'

[02:55.53] I'll prolly die at these house parties, fuckin' with bitches

[02:58.98] I'll prolly die from witnesses leavin' me false accused

[03:02.17] I'll prolly die from thinkin' that me and your hood was cool

[03:05.09] Or maybe die from pressin' the line, actin' too extra

[03:08.54] Or maybe die because these smokers

[03:10.67] Are more than desperate

[03:11.77] I'll prolly die from one of these bats and blue badges

[03:14.68] Body slammed on black and white paint, my bones snappin'

[03:17.87] Or maybe die from panic or die from bein' too lax

[03:21.31] Or die from waitin' on it, die 'cause I'm movin' too fast

[03:24.51] I'll prolly die tryna buy weed at the apartments

[03:27.71] I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two homies arguin'

[03:30.89] I'll prolly die 'cause that's what you do when you're 17

[03:33.80] All worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things

[03:37.28] If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mothafucka up

[03:42.60] And then I'd take two puffs

[03:45.54] I've been hungry all my life

[03:47.39] I'm high now, I'm high now

[03:50.04] I'm high now, I'm high now

[03:52.97] Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now, now

[04:02.81] When I was 27, I grew accustomed to more fear

[04:06.00] Accumulated 10 times over throughout the years

[04:09.18] My newfound life made all of me magnified

[04:12.37] How many accolades do I need to block denial?

[04:15.83] The shock value of my success put bolts in me

[04:18.74] All this money, is God playin' a joke on me?

[04:21.93] Is it for the moment and will he see me as Job?

[04:25.11] Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before?

[04:28.59] At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it all

[04:31.51] Scared to spend money, had me sleepin' from hall to hall

[04:34.97] Scared to go back to Section 8 with my mama stressin'

[04:37.89] 30 shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus

[04:41.33] What is an advisor somebody that's holdin' my checks?

[04:44.26] Just to fuck me over and put my finances in debt?

[04:47.46] I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wondered

[04:50.91] How did the bad girl feel when she looked at them numbers?

[04:54.14] The type of shit'll make me flip out

[04:55.73] And just kill somethin', drill somethin'

[04:57.60] Get ill and fill ratchets with a lil' somethin'

[05:00.02] I practiced runnin' from fear, guess I had some good luck

[05:03.49] At 27 years old, my biggest fear was bein' judged

[05:06.67] How they look at me reflect on myself, my family, my city

[05:10.13] What they say 'bout me reveal

[05:11.45] If my reputation would miss me

[05:13.32] What they see from me

[05:14.21] Would trickle down generations in time

[05:16.33] What they hear from me

[05:17.13] Would make 'em highlight my simplest lines

[05:19.52] I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' creativity

[05:22.18] I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' out on you and me

[05:25.91] I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' loyalty from pride

[05:29.09] 'cause my DNA won't let me involve in the light of God

[05:32.28] I'm talkin' fear, fear that my humbleness is gone

[05:35.20] I'm talkin' fear, fear that love ain't livin' here no more

[05:38.69] I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's wickedness or weakness

[05:41.87] Fear, whatever it is, both is distinctive

[05:45.34] Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth

[05:48.26] And I can't take these feelings

[05:49.33] With me so hopefully they disperse

[05:51.22] Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

[05:54.67] Searchin' for resolutions until somebody get back

[05:57.85] Fear, what happens on earth stays on earth

[06:00.97] And I can't take these feelings with me

[06:02.63] So hopefully they disperse

[06:04.24] Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

[06:07.42] Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear or livin' through rap

[06:10.88] Damn

[06:11.69] Goddamn you

[06:14.35] Goddamn me

[06:17.80] Goddamn us

[06:20.41] Goddamn we

[06:23.88] Goddamn us all

[06:36.04] Therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities

[06:38.95] So until we come back to these commandments

[06:41.01] Until you come back to these commandments

[06:43.13] We're gonna be in this place, we're gonna be under this curse

[06:46.05] Because he said he's gonna punish us

[06:47.84] The so-called Blacks, Hispanics, and Native American Indians

[06:52.09] Are the true children of Israel

[06:56.35] We are the Israelites according to the Bible

[06:58.75] The children of Israel, he's gonna punish us for our iniquities

[07:02.75] For our disobedience because we chose to follow other gods

[07:06.19] That aren't his son, so the Lord thy God chasten you

[07:11.24] So just like you'll chasten your own son

[07:13.64] He's gonna chasten you because he loves you

[07:16.84] So that's why we get chastised, that's why we're in the position we're in

[07:21.62] Until we come back to these laws, statutes and commandments

[07:24.52] And do what the Lord said, these curses are gonna be upon us

[07:28.25] We're gonna be at a lower state in this life that we live here in today

[07:33.60] In the United States of America

[07:35.73] I love you, son, and I pray for you

[07:38.92] God bless you, shalom