Somebody save me
[00:00.93] Daddy?
[00:01.26] Huh?
[00:01.88] Food here
[00:02.69] Get Bryan and we'll see who gets it
[00:04.90] Come eat
[00:05.73] Alaina, I'm so tired
[00:07.60] Just come eat
[00:09.18] Alaina, I'll be there in a minute, I promise
[00:11.30] Stop
[00:13.42] But wake up
[00:14.49] Shut the door
[00:15.83] Somebody save me
[00:19.54] Me from myself
[00:24.07] I've spent so long livin' in hell
[00:32.29] Another pill as I start to spiral
[00:35.21] Message to my daughters
[00:36.38] I don't even deserve the father title
[00:38.77] Hailie, I'm so sorry
[00:40.10] I know I wasn't there for your first guitar recital
[00:43.03] Didn't walk you down the aisle
[00:44.61] Missed the birth of your first child
[00:46.74] Your first podcast, lookin' down, sweetie
[00:48.94] I'm so proud of how you turned out
[00:51.05] Sorry that I chose drugs and put 'em above you
[00:53.71] Sorry that I didn't love you enough to
[00:56.65] Give 'em up, how the fuck do
[00:58.50] I not love you more than a pill?
[01:00.46] Lookin' up to the ceilin' from this floor, wonder will
[01:03.39] Somebody save me
[01:07.37] Me from myself
[01:11.62] I've spent so long (so long) livin' in hell
[01:19.59] They say my lifestyle is bad for my health
[01:27.83] It's the only thing that seems to help
[01:36.05] Alaina, sorry that you had to hear me fall in the bathroom
[01:39.51] Sorry that I missed your gradu–
[01:41.37] Wait, Nate, I should just congratulate you
[01:43.49] On being a dad to Carter and Liam, look at you
[01:47.50] Little bro, sorry I left you
[01:49.61] Sorry that I'll never get to
[01:51.73] Hold or hug my little nephews
[01:53.58] Stevie, I'm sorry, I missed you
[01:55.45] Grow up and I didn't get to
[01:57.35] Be the dad I wanted to be to you
[01:59.48] Things I wanted to see you do
[02:01.33] This is my song from me to you
[02:03.45] Sorry I gave up, but I'm just so defeated
[02:05.58] God, what the fuck do you want me to do?
[02:07.18] Somebody save me
[02:11.16] Me from myself
[02:15.67] I've spent so long (so long) livin' in hell
[02:23.11] They say my lifestyle is bad for my health
[02:31.42] It's the only thing that seems to help
[02:39.38] I've been starin' at the video of Hailie
[02:41.76] Almost daily, of her playin' a guitar
[02:43.90] In hopes maybe that'll give me the power to fight
[02:46.80] But the addict in me's a coward, he told me that I can't do it
[02:50.28] Had a second chance, blew it
[02:51.86] It's like I'm stuck inside an alternate reality, but I know (what?)
[02:55.05] I'll turn it around and be able to
[02:56.64] Walk her and Lainie one day
[02:58.77] To the altar as proud as can be
[03:01.43] Right now, I'm just weak
[03:02.60] As I fall further down in this deep hole
[03:04.74] And farther in the ground that I sink
[03:06.85] As they lower me in my coffin
[03:08.21] I feel the tears all fallin' down on my cheek
[03:11.67] I'm a lost cause (cause)
[03:14.85] Baby, don't waste your time on me
[03:19.10] I'm so damaged beyond repair
[03:23.11] Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
[03:27.07] I'm a lost cause
[03:30.77] Baby, don't waste your time on me
[03:35.05] I'm so damaged beyond repair
[03:39.03] Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
