NF_-_Happy

[00:02.01] Dear God, please, hear me out

[00:09.74] I know it's been a couple years

[00:15.05] Since I've reached out and said hello

[00:20.37] I bet You're wondering

[00:23.83] Why I keep

[00:27.81] Obsessing on and stressing all the little things

[00:32.85] When I should be

[00:37.11] Living life and soaking up the memories

[00:41.36] I know I've been selfish, I have

[00:46.40] No excuse to give you, it's true

[00:50.38] Hanging by a thread's how I live

[00:54.90] I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable

[00:59.68] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[01:04.46] Go up in flames, acting like I don't

[01:08.18] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[01:13.76] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[01:17.74] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[01:21.99] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[01:26.53] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[01:31.34] Who I'd be if I was happy

[01:35.59] Yeah, been this way so long

[01:37.19] It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed

[01:39.33] I got some issues that I won't address

[01:41.46] I got some baggage I ain't opened yet

[01:43.85] I got some demons I should put to rest

[01:45.97] I got some traumas that I can't forget

[01:48.37] I got some phone calls I been avoiding

[01:50.49] Some family members I don't really connect with

[01:52.89] Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip

[01:55.01] Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips

[01:57.40] Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet

[01:59.52] Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes

[02:01.91] I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul

[02:04.05] And the last to admit I need a hand to hold

[02:06.43] Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road

[02:08.56] Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm

[02:12.04] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[02:17.35] Go up in flames acting, like I don't

[02:21.34] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[02:25.85] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[02:29.83] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[02:34.35] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[02:39.14] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[02:43.65] Who I'd be if I was happy

[02:49.76] Don't know what's around the bend

[02:54.27] Don't know what my future is

[02:58.79] But I can't keep on living in

[03:06.22] Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem

[03:12.07] Go up in flames acting, like I don't

[03:15.79] Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully

[03:20.30] That that's the furthest thing from how I

[03:24.82] Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya

[03:28.54] To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in

[03:33.85] The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who

[03:38.37] Who I'd be if I was happy

[03:49.31] If I was happy

[03:58.08] If I was happy