Corduroy

[00:00.67] Indifferent to the people I detest

[00:03.06] But, it harms me in a way that even I cannot detect

[00:07.04] In my own flesh and blood (in my own flesh and blood)

[00:10.76] I think I've had enough (I think I've had enough, I've had enough)

[00:16.34] I welcome death with open arms

[00:18.47] Like an old friend I haven't seen

[00:20.32] Since I was young, when young was old

[00:22.45] When Daddy did terrible things

[00:25.11] Maybe I'd feel better then, when I leave you like this

[00:28.56] (Don't let me leave, don't let me leave)

[00:29.62] (Don't let me leave it all behind)

[00:32.81] While some days are not that bad

[00:34.67] And even pleasant one might say

[00:36.79] I can't control the thoughts I have

[00:38.92] I can't control the present wave of emotion

[00:42.37] Anxiously hoping for something or someone

[00:46.09] For anything at all

[00:47.95] I can't imagine a life without familiarity

[00:51.67] I can't imagine what it's like to live

[00:55.12] With certainty, I like to rewatch movies

[00:57.25] So I know the end of every scene

[01:00.17] I know the end of everything I do

[01:02.56] Because I won't ever leave my room

[01:04.68] It's safer here, safety's all I want and all I need

[01:08.40] Buried my issues here, deep within the walls and in my dreams

[01:12.39] In my own atmosphere is where I'll die

[01:15.31] So, let me die in peace

[01:16.64] I'm on my final breath, my final steps

[01:18.76] I've never felt so free

[01:20.36] But my head's spinning

[01:23.28] I can't help but think of who I'm abandoning

[01:27.53] And suddenly my chest cries out in pure panic

[01:30.98] It cannot end like this

[01:32.84] I say with strength I haven't felt before

[01:34.96] And that's when it finally hits

[01:37.09] With my hands sweating

[01:39.48] Climb down from the ledge of

[01:41.07] What's all so threatening

[01:43.73] But it don't cause me fear no more

[01:45.59] My fingers touch the fabric of my

[01:47.71] Jacket made of corduroy

[01:49.57] Reminding me of Brentwood and the

[01:51.96] Things that I would die to see again

[01:53.03] Die to see again

[01:56.75] Die to see again

[02:01.79] Die to see again

[02:10.03] My jacket made of corduroy

[02:12.16] And, oh, I stand to lose my life, my soul

[02:14.54] My time, my home, my thoughts

[02:15.87] My sweet and sour youth

[02:17.73] I can't let go of who I was

[02:19.85] But I can cut myself in two

[02:21.98] And I can pick up all the pieces

[02:24.10] And let everybody choose

[02:27.03] Yeah, it's all in your mind, boy, it's all in your head

[02:31.54] Leave it all behind, you can finish when you're dead

[02:35.26] I'll be waiting for you here

[02:37.39] When this madness finally ends

[02:39.78] Remember who you are, don't forget her

[02:42.17] When your head's spinning

[02:44.82] Stuck in a room with the television on

[02:48.28] While you're tripping on shrooms

[02:50.67] You got your thoughts spilling

[02:53.06] But none of it's true, it's a façade

[02:55.71] Your heart can tear apart the parts

[02:57.31] That make it you

[03:00.23] Hello, again, it's nice to see you're back

[03:02.89] Did you like the things you saw

[03:04.75] And do you finally understand why I wear corduroy?

[03:10.32] I really like corduroy

[03:16.17] Hello, my friend, anything you'd like to ask?

[03:19.35] Any unresolved pollutions in your head that make you gag?

[03:23.34] I'm just one call away

[03:26.79] So please don't be afraid to call me back