Ethel Cain - Crying During Sex

[00:42.47] I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues

[00:53.36] When I take you and your

[00:56.81] Brother in the back pew

[01:01.86] Drive into the median

[01:07.17] Keep myself from eating and wonder

[01:11.42] Why I feel so sick

[01:14.61] Tradition’s ligature marks always

[01:18.33] Yellow through

[01:25.50] I lied when I said I didn’t want you

[01:34.00] In no time

[01:38.51] You’ll forget the way we were supposed to be

[01:44.36] Asking what I’m on this time

[01:48.61] Holding on to you like I do

[01:55.25] Like we’re the only people in the

[01:58.44] World god left to mind to

[02:08.26] Two drowning coals won’t ever light

[02:18.62] But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night

[02:34.83] If I want you like I said I’d never do

[02:40.14] I would hold my breath and

[02:43.59] Sit down next to you

[02:45.72] Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you

[02:51.03] And right now I need you

[02:56.34] I don’t know what happened

[02:59.00] I don’t know what happened

[03:01.65] I was young and sweet

[03:04.31] And then something happened

[03:07.23] Something overwhelming something everlasting

[03:17.06] Time drags on

[03:20.78] I hate him for the time he’s gone

[03:26.09] I’ve been here for weeks

[03:28.75] I’ve been here for years

[03:31.40] I’ve been here too long

[03:37.25] I forgot what stop means

[03:41.50] Either I drink it or the boat sinks

[03:46.81] It’s easy for him to get out of me

[03:52.12] What I’ve been praying will get out of me

[04:00.36] Will I always be crying during sex with you

[04:08.33] All my dreams take place in

[04:10.19] Heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you

[04:19.22] Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises

[04:22.40] Between my thighs

[04:24.53] Look me deep In my eyes like

[04:27.45] I’m a river worth wading

[04:31.17] And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love

[04:48.17] And I could love you if I tried

[04:53.75] And I’m trying

[04:56.40] I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying