Happy Ending

[00:05.14] I don't even wanna fucking do this song, for real

[00:07.26] But I wouldn't be real if I didn't

[00:14.70] I be sittin' by myself and I be thinkin', "Momma, what have I become?"

[00:17.36] All I wanted was a family, but when I look up, you the only one

[00:20.53] Losing everything but money, everybody left and I don't even get to see my young

[00:23.46] Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run

[00:26.65] On the road, doin' shows, get the woes, when it slows

[00:29.83] Gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin' sold

[00:33.02] I've been doin' this a minute but I think I wanna end it 'cause I'm on a higher level when I go

[00:36.21] But the music I be doin', it be losin' 'em and make it really tough for me to grow

[00:39.66] All I wanted was a family portrait, see my babies on a ranch with horses

[00:43.12] But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets

[00:44.71] I was livin' really good then I torched it

[00:46.30] I'm sorry Ms. Jackson, I'm speakin' for real and I never meant to make your daughter cry

[00:49.77] But I guess I'm a failure with women I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die

[00:52.95] Feel like that I'm rotting away, my life is just off in the grey

[00:56.13] How much does it cost? I will pay, to lay, and be off in a coffin today

[00:59.32] I mean off in ashes, this life ain't after it clashes, If I get blasted

[01:02.78] This is Suicide Letters all over again, I thought that I passed it

[01:06.23] But I guess that I didn't, 'cause this one is written and there is no mending

[01:11.28] When I'm broke I'm a joke, when I croak I just hope that I won't be descending

[01:13.14] But this ain't a joke, I want you to know that Tech Ninna is never pretending

[01:16.33] Alone in my bed, with a gun to my head, asking, "where is my happy ending?"

[01:19.78] Yeah

[01:21.64] Tell me how it ends

[01:23.23] What about me? Where is my happy ending?

[01:29.86] What about me? Is this a life worth living?

[01:35.44] You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

[01:38.89] Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

[01:42.08] Will this stop before I stop breathing?

[01:45.27] Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

[01:51.64] I put my life in this music, Nina is inside out

[01:55.37] I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside 'bout

[01:58.83] Will they keep feelin' Nina forever? This I doubt

[02:01.75] Can never cry for help, so if you listenin' this my (Shout!)

[02:05.73] I'm searching for the passage way to happiness

[02:08.65] But i'm worldly so I have to lay in nastiness

[02:11.85] Yes, this is Strange year, worldwide fame's near, but the game's queer

[02:16.09] Sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the Reindeer

[02:18.22] But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes

[02:21.67] And the music they said blows, is on top and the cred grows

[02:25.11] Can you resurrect a motherfucker that feel like he posses a dead soul

[02:28.30] Deteriorate to an inferior state almost equal to bread mold

[02:31.49] Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those

[02:34.68] Because all the times the Nina was shorted, what I bled froze

[02:38.12] So now that I'm cold blooded, and hella sick is what the med shows

[02:41.31] The tread slows, and don't even think you reviving a dead rose

[02:45.04] Yeah

[02:46.91] Tell me how it ends

[02:48.51] What about me? Where is my happy ending?

[02:55.16] What about me? Is this a life worth living?

[03:00.46] You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

[03:04.18] Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

[03:07.90] Will this stop before I stop breathing?

[03:11.09] Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

[03:17.20] Listen

[03:18.00] I'm on the verge of insanity, but I'm competent

[03:20.64] I'm breakin' so I pick this one to vent

[03:23.30] The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin' evilness

[03:27.03] I'm drownin' in 151 and Rumple Minze

[03:29.68] That's how I feel

[03:31.28] I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill

[03:33.92] But I know damn well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill

[03:37.12] This life is about a check, about a number, about a bill

[03:40.58] Think about all the love I lost because my quest is about a mill

[03:43.48] I feel like you're stupid, don't talk to me I'm crackin' up

[03:46.96] And I don't mean laughter, I'm full of bitterness and it's backing up

[03:50.16] And I live with angels, but lately demons been shackin' up

[03:53.60] Tug of war with my spirit, see the blood I'm hacking up?

[03:57.05] I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder

[04:00.24] 'Cause you pay the price for my life and it's right like Bob Barker

[04:03.70] And I won't pretend that it's okay I'm no facade starter

[04:06.88] So I guess my only happy ending's in a massage parlor

[04:10.61] Yeah

[04:12.21] Tell me how it ends

[04:13.79] What about me? Where is my happy ending?

[04:20.17] What about me? Is this a life worth living?

[04:26.28] You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

[04:29.72] Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

[04:33.18] Will this stop before I stop breathing?

[04:36.90] Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?