jamie paige - cadmium colors

[00:00.49] I spend my hours doing alchemy

[00:03.43] I mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green

[00:06.61] Prosaic practice of depravity

[00:09.53] Suspending innocents above their disbelief

[00:11.93] I wish that I could paint a pretty picture onto everything

[00:15.64] And leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything

[00:18.56] But maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy

[00:23.08] Just chasing down a sense of infamy

[00:25.74] (じゃ〜！) Put brush to canvas with a pirouette

[00:29.18] A simple motion makes the consequence intricate

[00:32.11] All the little nothings and my parapet

[00:37.43] I hope it's something that you don't forget

[00:41.94] Cadmium red is the ground beneath

[00:45.12] Cadmium orange, everything I see

[00:48.32] Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe

[00:51.76] Cadmium colors painted inside me

[00:54.96] I can make autumn from a single leaf

[00:58.14] Steal a fine picture like a first class thief

[01:01.32] Make the water work like you won't believe

[01:04.78] Find a new world that can set you free

[01:07.97] How could anybody ever live like me?

[01:11.69] I spend my hours doing alchemy

[01:14.87] I make a life refining zinc inside the smeltery

[01:18.06] It's not exactly where I want to be

[01:21.25] But wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed

[01:23.11] I wish that I could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy

[01:26.83] And turn a feeling to a living for my family

[01:29.89] Instead I make the metals in the pigments in my reverie

[01:34.13] And maybe that can be enough for me

[01:37.33] Oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?

[01:40.52] Its like a knife inside twisting my arteries

[01:43.43] God, I want for nothing but identity

[01:48.74] I think that something might be wrong with me

[01:53.39] Cadmium red is the ground beneath

[01:56.32] Cadmium orange, everything I see

[01:59.51] Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe

[02:02.97] Cadmium colors painted inside me

[02:06.15] Antegrade fever, 101 degrees

[02:09.33] Shatter my body with a gentle breeze

[02:12.53] Dammit, I am real and I have my dreams

[02:15.97] Watch me burn brighter 'til I fail to breathe

[02:19.16] How could anybody ever live like me?

[02:23.41] (Baby, do you know what it's like to die?)

[02:25.67] (To see the sparkle fade from inside your eye?)

[02:28.05] I can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy

[02:30.71] Can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me

[02:33.79] (I don't wanna leave with a work undone)

[02:36.19] (The paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)

[02:38.58] I kept a bullet in the chamber, mocking me

[02:41.64] But I don't wanna feel it coming out of me

[02:44.03] I don't want—

[03:11.39] I spend my hours doing alchemy

[03:14.21] I mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green

[03:17.65] Chasing impossible philosophy

[03:20.31] And hoping that this poison ain't the death of me

[03:26.95] Cadmium red is the ground beneath

[03:30.14] Cadmium orange, everything I see

[03:33.32] Cadmium yellow is the air I breathe

[03:36.77] Cadmium colors painted inside me

[03:40.23] I can make autumn from a single leaf

[03:43.15] Steal a fine picture like a first class thief

[03:46.34] Make the water work like you won't believe

[03:49.52] Find a new world that can set you free

[03:52.72] How could anybody ever live like—

[03:57.23] (Baby, do you know what you wanna hear?)

[04:00.15] ('Cause you can say the word, make it oh so clear)

[04:03.07] We're all just searching for a sense of solidarity

[04:06.53] To hold each other close and confiscate our destiny

[04:09.99] (No one wants to leave with a work undone)

[04:13.16] (We only need a brush we can pass along)

[04:16.09] I kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day

[04:19.55] But what's the point in planning for it anyway?

[04:22.99] I've got too many colors for a shade of grey

[04:26.18] And I can make it autumn every single day