Blame on me
[00:02.60] Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[00:06.57] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[00:08.09] Nobody was there to even listen
[00:10.83] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[00:15.57] And I put the blame on me
[00:15.82] I put the blame on me
[00:18.06] I put the blame on me
[00:25.57] Only 10 years old
[00:27.31] I'm already numb, yeah my heart's getting cold
[00:30.06] Saw my mama getting weaker, hurt me to my soul
[00:32.84] The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl
[00:36.32] He put that pistol to her head
[00:37.56] I swear he coulda shot her dead
[00:39.32] Man that liquor made him evil
[00:41.82] I swear that man ain't had no reason
[00:44.81] That shit just turned him to a demon, yeah
[00:47.83] Fast forward a couple years
[00:49.58] I done turned 12
[00:50.57] Living life one hell to the next hell
[00:53.56] I got cousins touching me inappropriately
[00:56.58] And don't nobody believe me when I tell
[00:59.82] When you learn that shit heals, ain't no one to look up to
[01:02.31] And the same people hurting you telling they love you
[01:05.36] Before too long you start believing
[01:08.08] That maybe you're the reason, yeah
[01:12.33] Mama getting high up in the kitchen
[01:14.84] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing
[01:17.82] Nobody was there to even listen
[01:20.60] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah
[01:25.57] And I put the blame on me
[01:27.57] I put the blame on me, yeah
[01:30.60] I put the blame on me
[01:34.56] Age 14 left East St. Louis
[01:37.11] New drama but I really ain't new to it
[01:40.11] Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I'm the joke
[01:43.09] Black and white was too black for the white folks
[01:46.13] I can't do nothing 'bout my face
[01:47.82] Feeling all over the place
[01:49.06] Over something I can't control
[01:51.84] Fuck is wrong with these people?
[01:54.57] Or is it something wrong with me though? Yeah
[01:58.08] Age 16, life's still mean
[02:00.60] Mama fell hard, needed rescuing
[02:03.30] She got a new man, he told her simply
[02:06.33] She could stay with him long as she don't bring me
[02:09.57] I guess she had to make a chose
[02:11.06] Did what she had to do
[02:13.32] Chose him over her own kid
[02:15.10] I don't know what would make her do this
[02:17.81] Had to be something I did, ooh
[02:22.11] Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
[02:24.82] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
[02:27.56] Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
[02:30.34] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
[02:34.32] And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[02:37.60] I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
[02:40.61] I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[02:44.57] I was homeless till I turned 18
[02:47.09] Started living with a man I was dating
[02:50.07] Last thing on my mind was graduating
[02:52.81] All about survival and money-making
[02:56.10] Always seemed to escape my reality
[02:58.83] Just tryna play the cards, goddamn me
[03:01.81] Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart
[03:05.33] When it went viral I was working in Walmart
[03:09.82] I got a new start
[03:11.59] Taking my pain, turning it into art
[03:14.08] Turning bad times into hot sounds
[03:16.82] For the first time where I belong
[03:21.83] 20 now, making moves, making money now
[03:26.57] Rainy days hella sunny now
[03:29.32] But every now and then I think about
[03:32.07] Mama getting high up in the kitchen (eh)
[03:34.82] Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (eh)
[03:37.34] Nobody was there to even listen (yeah, yeah)
[03:40.06] I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (ooh) yeah
[03:44.82] And I put the blame on me (blame on me)
[03:47.61] I put the blame on me (ooh) yeah
[03:50.62] I put the blame on me (blame on me)
