09 - Happy

[00:12.97] Since I was 17

[00:17.47] I've always hated my body

[00:18.97] And it feels like my body's hated me

[00:24.22] Can somebody find me a pill to make me un-afraid of me?

[00:28.22] Seen every therapist, but I'm a cynical bitch

[00:32.48] (Don't like to talk about my feelings)

[00:35.22] I take another hit, I find another fake fix

[00:39.99] 'Cause it's easier than healing

[00:41.98] I don't wanna be this way forever

[00:45.22] Keep telling myself that I'll get better

[00:48.98] Every time I try I always stop me

[00:52.47] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[00:59.74] Maybe

[01:02.47] Since I was 22

[01:06.97] I've been with somebody who loves me

[01:08.73] And I've been trying to believe it's true

[01:13.97] But my head always messes up my heart, no matter what I do

[01:17.72] Seen every therapist, but I'm a cynical bitch

[01:21.97] (Don't like to talk about my feelings)

[01:24.72] I take another sip, I swear it's my last fix

[01:28.97] 'Cause it's easier than healing

[01:31.46] 'Cause I don't wanna be this way forever

[01:34.71] Keep telling myself that I'll get better

[01:38.52] Every time I try I always stop me

[01:41.97] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[01:45.59] I don't wanna be this way forever

[01:48.84] Keep telling myself that I'll get better

[01:52.59] Every time I try I always stop me

[01:55.87] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[02:03.83] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[02:10.07] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[02:15.33] I'm so scared of having something to lose

[02:18.83] I'm scared of being somebody new

[02:22.34] I'm so scared of all them seeing the truth

[02:25.59] 'Cause right now I've got nothing

[02:29.32] But I don't wanna be this way forever

[02:32.83] Keep telling myself that I'll get better

[02:36.58] Every time I try I always stop me

[02:39.83] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[02:47.07] Maybe I'm just scared to be happy

[02:54.07] Maybe I

[02:56.08] Maybe I'm

[02:56.83] I'm scared to be happy