Mansion

[00:01.28] Insidious is blind inception

[00:03.51] What's reality with all these questions?

[00:06.28] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[00:12.51] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[00:16.01] These walls are my blank expression

[00:19.27] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[00:22.77] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[00:31.26] Yo, my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics, they're all over the place

[00:35.76] There's songs in the mirrors written all over the floors, all over the chairs

[00:41.04] And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs

[00:44.26] That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release

[00:47.26] And let out the version of NF you don't want to see

[00:50.26] I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed

[00:53.78] You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me

[00:56.76] Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in

[01:00.02] That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it

[01:03.26] And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em

[01:06.26] But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em

[01:09.29] I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

[01:12.51] Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground

[01:16.01] Matter of fact I think I'ma burn this room right now

[01:19.26] So now this memory for some reason just won't come down

[01:22.28] You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes

[01:25.26] Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried

[01:28.81] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[01:31.77] But I'ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside

[01:36.51] Insidious is blind inception

[01:39.51] What's reality with all these questions?

[01:42.26] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[01:46.75] And slept in

[01:48.77] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[01:51.79] These walls are my blank expression

[01:55.05] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[01:58.51] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[02:02.26] Inside this mansion

[02:04.26] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

[02:07.01] See, my problem is I don't fix things, I just try to repaint

[02:10.26] Cover em up, like it never happened

[02:12.26] Say I wish I could change, are you confused?

[02:13.76] Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean

[02:16.76] This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems

[02:20.01] The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave

[02:23.25] I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things

[02:26.27] But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep

[02:29.51] I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls

[02:32.78] Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom

[02:36.26] And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called

[02:39.26] But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song

[02:42.52] And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am

[02:45.51] And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can

[02:48.76] Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands

[02:52.01] Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans

[02:55.04] And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive

[02:58.26] And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die

[03:01.50] Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind

[03:04.51] The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?

[03:08.02] Insidious is blind inception

[03:12.26] What's reality with all these questions?

[03:15.26] Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)

[03:20.02] And slept in

[03:21.77] Broken legs but I chase perfection

[03:24.52] These walls are my blank expression

[03:28.01] My mind is a home I'm trapped in

[03:31.50] And it's lonely inside this mansion

[03:35.51] Inside this mansion

[03:37.52] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years

[03:40.01] I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

[03:43.26] 'Cause if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back

[03:47.51] And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

[03:50.76] So I just leave my doors locked

[03:52.76] You might get other doors to open up but this door's not

[03:55.51] 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me

[03:58.75] And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me

[04:02.01] I'm barricaded inside so stop watching

[04:04.51] I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking, stop knocking

[04:09.26] I'm trapped here, God keeps saying I'm not locked in

[04:12.26] I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience

[04:15.27] I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem

[04:18.02] But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em

[04:21.50] I built it because I thought that it was safer in there

[04:25.00] But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here

[04:28.26] Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in

[04:31.03] Maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since

[04:34.02] I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did

[04:37.26] He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in

[04:40.76] Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win

[04:43.76] Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can

[04:47.28] 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors

[04:50.51] Is that me or the fear talking?

[04:52.51] I don't know anymore

[05:07.00] Lonely (lonely) it's lonely

[05:12.01] Oh yeah, it's lonely

[05:18.26] Inside this mansion