The search

[00:22.39] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:24.36] I don't know, it's alright

[00:25.86] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:28.11] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:30.16] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:32.12] I just think I need a little me time

[00:34.10] I just think I need a little free time

[00:36.12] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:38.13] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:40.10] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:42.11] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:43.90] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[00:45.86] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[00:47.87] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[00:49.86] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[00:51.85] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[00:53.86] I've been searchin'

[00:55.11] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[00:56.39] I've been learning

[00:57.35] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[00:59.10] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:01.38] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[01:03.35] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:05.11] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:06.89] And things might hurt me

[01:08.35] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[01:10.10] It's worth it, though

[01:11.61] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:13.36] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:15.34] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:17.35] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:19.35] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:21.35] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:24.14] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:26.35] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:28.11] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:29.86] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:31.60] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:33.91] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:35.88] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:38.12] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:40.60] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:42.61] Where'd the beat go?

[01:43.86] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[01:45.60] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[01:47.61] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[01:49.64] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[01:51.61] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[01:53.61] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[01:55.87] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[01:57.64] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[01:59.62] I can be critical, never typical

[02:01.10] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:03.11] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:05.15] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[02:07.60] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:09.10] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:11.12] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:13.13] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:16.34] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:17.85] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:19.36] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:21.37] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:23.35] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:25.36] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:27.39] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:29.35] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:31.35] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:33.35] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:35.37] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:37.35] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:39.39] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:41.35] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:43.35] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:46.16] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[02:47.60] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[02:49.35] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[02:51.60] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[02:53.36] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[02:55.35] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[02:57.38] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[02:59.60] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:01.60] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[03:03.88] It's that time again

[03:05.36] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:07.61] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:09.59] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:11.36] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:13.38] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:15.36] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:17.35] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh