NF - The Search

[00:36.91] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:38.66] I don't know, it's alright

[00:40.43] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:42.66] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:44.90] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:46.66] I just think I need a little me time

[00:48.65] I just think I need a little free time

[00:50.68] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:53.16] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:54.67] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:56.42] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:58.44] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[01:00.42] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[01:02.42] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[01:04.42] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[01:06.46] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[01:08.69] I've been searchin'

[01:09.67] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[01:10.91] I've been learning

[01:11.66] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[01:13.70] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:15.66] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[01:17.66] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:19.40] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:21.68] And things might hurt me

[01:22.66] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[01:25.16] It's worth it, though

[01:25.93] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:27.92] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:29.91] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:31.90] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:33.67] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:35.93] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:38.68] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.92] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:42.42] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:44.41] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:46.41] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:48.66] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:50.70] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:52.68] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:55.16] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:57.91] Where'd the beat go?

[01:58.43] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[02:00.18] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[02:02.16] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[02:04.18] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[02:06.19] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[02:08.16] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[02:10.15] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[02:12.17] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[02:14.18] I can be critical, never typical

[02:15.44] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:17.41] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:19.41] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[02:21.92] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:23.66] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.69] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:27.66] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:30.69] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:30.91] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:34.16] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:35.91] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:38.15] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:39.93] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:41.91] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:44.16] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:46.19] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:47.91] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.95] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:51.92] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:53.94] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:56.16] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:57.91] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[03:00.16] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[03:02.18] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[03:03.70] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[03:06.16] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[03:08.16] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[03:10.18] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[03:12.15] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[03:14.66] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:15.92] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[03:18.92] It's that time again

[03:19.91] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:23.42] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:24.42] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:26.16] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:28.17] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:29.91] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:32.18] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh