The Search

[00:36.36] "Hey, Nate, how's life?"

[00:38.36] I don't know, it's alright

[00:40.36] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:42.61] And really didn't sleep much last night (last night)

[00:44.36] "I'm sorry", that's fine

[00:46.44] I just think I need a little me time

[00:48.19] I just think I need a little free time

[00:49.94] Little break from the shows and the bus rides (bus rides), yeah

[00:52.69] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:54.44] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost gettin' too loud

[00:56.19] Had to see a therapist, then I found out

[00:58.19] Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house

[01:00.44] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[01:02.21] You know, pack my car, take a new route

[01:04.20] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[01:06.45] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out)

[01:08.70] I've been searchin'

[01:09.95] "What does that mean, Nate?"

[01:10.69] I've been learning

[01:11.70] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[01:13.69] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:15.70] Lookin' at the view like, this concerns me

[01:17.44] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:19.69] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:21.94] And things might hurt me

[01:22.94] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey (but hey)

[01:24.99] It's worth it, though

[01:25.94] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:27.94] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:29.69] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:31.71] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:33.69] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone

[01:35.94] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:38.44] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.95] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:42.44] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:44.20] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:46.20] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:48.20] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:50.19] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:52.44] That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred

[01:55.19] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:57.19] Where'd the beat go?

[01:58.69] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[02:00.44] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[02:01.94] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[02:03.69] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[02:05.94] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[02:07.94] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit

[02:09.94] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[02:11.94] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[02:13.94] I can be critical, never typical

[02:15.69] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:17.69] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:19.70] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it, though

[02:21.69] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:23.70] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.69] Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful

[02:27.60] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos, videos)

[02:30.35] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:31.85] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:33.85] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:35.86] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:37.85] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:39.85] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:42.12] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:43.60] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:45.86] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:48.11] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.86] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:51.60] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?

[02:53.60] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:55.61] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:57.60] You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate

[02:59.85] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!)

[03:01.85] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[03:03.86] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[03:05.85] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[03:07.85] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[03:09.85] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[03:11.85] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[03:13.85] Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:15.85] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah (ah)

[03:18.60] It's that time again

[03:19.85] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:21.85] Seat belts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:23.85] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:25.86] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:27.85] Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist

[03:29.85] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist

[03:31.85] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh