NF - Therapy Session

[00:19.32] Yeah, I gotta say like a month ago

[00:22.07] I was talking to fans

[00:24.58] And one of them pulled me aside and said

[00:25.58] "We never met but I swear that you know who I am

[00:27.54] I been through a lot

[00:28.54] I don't know how to express it to people

[00:30.55] Don't think that I can but I got that mansion CD on rotation

[00:34.04] That's real for me Nate, you do not understand"

[00:36.33] It's crazy for me

[00:37.57] Kids hit me up, say they slitting they wrists on the daily

[00:40.08] This music is more than you think

[00:41.84] Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining

[00:44.58] Hearing these parents, they telling their kids

[00:46.82] My music is violent, you gotta be kidding me

[00:48.84] I guess that your definition of violence and mine

[00:51.57] Is something that we look at differently

[00:53.31] How do you picture me ah?

[00:54.81] Want me to smile, you want me to laugh

[00:56.30] You want me to walk in the stage with a smile on my face

[00:57.55] When I'm mad and put on a mask, for real though

[01:00.80] I mean, what you expect from me?

[01:04.55] I'm tryna do this respectfully

[01:06.29] They say that life is a race

[01:07.79] I know my problems'll probably catch up eventually

[01:10.54] I do my best to be calm

[01:12.30] How you gon' write me and tell me you slaughter my family?

[01:15.07] That's just a glimpse to the stuff that get sent to me

[01:17.09] These the parts of my life that'll never see, woo

[01:20.32] I am aware it's aggressive

[01:22.08] I am not here for acceptance

[01:23.82] I don't know what you expect here

[01:25.07] But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session?

[01:29.57] Therapy, therapy session

[01:38.58] Therapy, therapy session

[01:46.79] This girl at the show looked me in the face

[01:49.04] And told me her life's full of drama

[01:51.30] Said that her dad is abusive

[01:52.54] Apparently he likes to beat on her mama

[01:55.57] I got so angry inside

[01:57.07] I wanted to tell her to give me his number

[01:59.82] But what you gon' do with it right?

[02:01.32] You gon' hit him up then he'll start hitting her harder

[02:03.57] That's real

[02:04.58] These kids, they come to my shows

[02:06.07] With tears in they eyes

[02:07.57] Imagine someone looking at you

[02:08.83] And saying your music's the reason that they are alive

[02:11.82] Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it

[02:13.32] This type of life isn't glamorous

[02:14.82] This ain't an act for the cameras

[02:16.57] You see me walk on these stages but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it

[02:20.57] I put it all in the open

[02:22.32] This is the way that I cope with all my emotion

[02:24.82] I'm taking pictures with thousands of people

[02:27.07] But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me

[02:31.04] I'm trying to deal with depression

[00:00.00] I'm trying to deal with the pressure

[00:00.00] How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message

[00:00.00] When I'm looking out at this crowd full of people I know I affected?

[00:00.00] Ah, I got some things in my life, I know I should let 'em go

[00:00.00] Let me jot it down, let me take a mental note

[00:00.00] I put it all in this microphone, think about that for a minute

[00:00.00] What is the point of this song, I'm just venting but what you expect from a therapy session?

[00:00.00] Therapy, therapy session

[00:00.00] Therapy, therapy session

[00:00.00] What you think about me

[00:00.00] That doesn't worry me

[00:00.00] I know I handle some things immaturely

[00:00.00] I know that I need to grow in maturity

[00:00.00] I ain't gon' walk on these stages in front of these people

[00:00.00] And act like I live my life perfectly

[00:00.00] That doesn't work for me

[00:00.00] Christian is not the definition of a perfect me, woo

[00:00.00] I ain't the type to be quiet

[00:00.00] I ain't gon' sit here in silence

[00:00.00] If I wouldn't say what I say to your face

[00:00.00] Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private

[00:00.00] I am not lying

[00:00.00] People go off on my page and I'm trying to quit the replying

[00:00.00] But this is ridiculous

[00:00.00] I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing

[00:00.00] You want me to keep it 100? Okay, I'll keep it 100

[00:00.00] I see a whole lot of talking on socials

[00:00.00] But honestly, I don't see nothing in public

[00:00.00] I kinda love it, yeah

[00:00.00] "Why don't you write us some happy raps?

[00:00.00] That would be awesome

[00:00.00] All your music is moody and dark, Nate"

[00:00.00] Don't get me started

[00:00.00] You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?

[00:00.00] Listen to my verses

[00:00.00] This music is not just for people

[00:00.00] Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches

[00:00.00] I won't reject it

[00:00.00] I don't expect everyone to respect it

[00:00.00] I don't expect you to get my perspective

[00:00.00] What you expect from a therapy session?

[00:00.00] I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I'm doing

[00:00.00] I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with

[00:00.00] Something that I'm actually experiencing, this is real for me

[00:00.00] Like this is something that personally helps me as well

[00:00.00] I'm not confused about who gave me the gift

[00:00.00] God gave me the gift and he gave me the ability to do this

[00:00.00] And he also gave me this as an outlet

[00:00.00] And that's what music is for me

[00:00.00] When I feel something, whether it's anger

[00:00.00] Um, it's a passion about something, or frustration

[00:00.00] Like this is where I go, this is, that's the whole NFrealmusic thing man

[00:00.00] This is real for me, I need this, this is a therapy for me