Vin Jay - Addicted (LYRICS)(MP3_160K)

[00:11.49] I swear to God they'll probably never understand me

[00:14.46] Sick of just walking around, pretending I'm happy

[00:16.73] Feel like collapsing from all weight that I carry

[00:19.96] But I just keep it pushing and pop me another Xanny

[00:22.46] Know it's sad but I remember as a kid it was rough

[00:24.97] Always thought we had it all, what I was missing was love

[00:28.21] And always drowning in some waters that were thicker than blood

[00:31.21] Still they wonder how the fuck I got addicted to drugs, damn

[00:33.92] But they don't get that I'm avoiding feeling pain

[00:36.67] Only time I feel alive is when there's poison in my veins

[00:41.96] Momma telling me to look at what I'm doing to myself

[00:42.71] But I just wanna be fucking happy like everybody else

[00:45.96] They looking down on me like I'm the fucking villain

[00:47.71] I don't wanna talk about it, I know they don't wanna listen

[00:50.46] I was only tryna make up for the feeling I was missing

[00:53.71] If I'm only feeling pain, tell me, what's the point of living

[00:56.72] Every day I'm waking up and tryna deal with the stress

[00:59.71] And I've been acting like I'm happy when my life is a mess

[01:02.46] And all I know is that I got this fucking pain in my chest

[01:07.00] And I would love to get clean but I'm too fucking depressed, damn

[01:08.98] Momma's panicking and losing her faith

[01:11.51] Came to tell me 'bout a rehab in a beautiful place

[01:14.46] She said, "Just checking up if you was awake"

[01:19.71] She broke down when she seen her son blue in the face and thought

[01:20.73] No one ever told me it would be this hard

[01:23.71] Never really thought that it would take my life, no

[01:25.97] I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh

[01:29.48] Once upon a time we were the happiest couple

[01:39.48] Knew we always had each other, never had any trouble

[01:43.44] Always had each other's backs if we happened to struggle

[01:47.18] I left some people in the past and they were mad that I loved you

[01:49.93] Said it's only puppy love, I knew that wasn't the case

[01:52.42] I remember getting nervous when I brought you on dates

[01:55.22] Conversations 'bout the future and copping our own place

[01:59.96] Talking 'bout the day you'd be sharing my last name

[02:01.50] I think I'd loved since the time that we met

[02:03.98] You had my heart and to be honest you was taking my breath

[02:06.70] All my homies said that I became a little obsessed

[02:10.45] Never thought that you would get up and leave me fucking depressed, damn

[02:13.19] How could you leave me girl, I thought you were the one

[02:16.20] Treated you like a queen, never lied to you once

[02:18.44] Now I feel like I'm drowning and there's water filling me lungs

[02:20.68] I don't wanna be alone, I'm afraid of who I've become

[02:23.69] You're gone and I fucking hate it, I feel like I'm suffocating

[02:26.93] You ripped my fucking heart out and never tried to replace it

[02:30.73] Now when I think about you all I feel is disgust

[02:33.47] You were all I ever wanted, thanks for fucking it up

[02:36.71] Everybody that's around me know that something is wrong

[02:38.47] They always try to tell me love is the strongest drug of 'em all

[02:41.46] You know what, huh, I'ma go and see for myself

[02:43.71] Let me pop a couple Xannys, I'ma see if it helps

[02:48.97] Oh my God, I think I finally feel alive again

[02:51.72] Oh my God, I think I'm finally 'bout to smile again

[02:54.44] And I just started sleeping better at night

[02:56.44] I think I finally found the feeling of what heaven is like

[02:58.93] They're getting rid of all my stress when I'm torn

[03:02.21] And I could tell that they're relieving all my pressure for sure

[03:05.22] Soon my dealer told me that he couldn't get me anymore

[03:08.17] Now I'm feeling way sicker than I ever did before

[03:11.47] Shit, I can't even take a brief intermission

[03:13.71] Without me throwing up and feeling like a piece of me's missing

[03:16.72] There was a time I needed love, now I need a perscription

[03:19.49] I'm done with living like this, I'd rather lethal injection

[03:22.70] 'Cause all I think about is pills when I open my eyes

[03:25.70] And every day I'm waking up and feeling broken inside

[03:28.69] When all I really wanted was to feel happy for once

[03:31.23] But now I'm losing myself and losing my family's trust, damn

[03:34.97] I really think these drugs have taken my soul

[03:36.95] Probably pop 'em till they put me in the grave and I'm cold

[03:39.73] But I can't point any fingers, I know the blame is my own

[03:42.18] I got addicted to a bitch and that's the fate that I chose

[03:46.44] No one ever told me it would be this hard

[03:50.75] Never really thought that it would take my life, no

[03:54.45] I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh

[03:57.97] No one ever told me it would be this hard

[04:03.72] Never really thought that it would take my life, no

[04:05.72] I just want the pain to fucking go away, eh, eh, eh-eh