stan

[00:05.31] My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

[00:10.80] The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

[00:16.55] And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall

[00:23.28] It reminds me, that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

[00:29.30] My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

[00:35.02] The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

[00:41.05] And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall

[00:47.30] It reminds me, that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

[00:52.55] Dear Slim, I wrote you but you still ain't calling

[00:55.56] I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom

[00:58.55] I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not've got 'em

[01:01.53] There probably was a problem at the post office or something

[01:04.55] Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em

[01:07.30] But anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man, how's your daughter?

[01:10.55] My girlfriend's pregnant, too, I'm bout to be a father

[01:12.77] If I have a daughter, guess what I'mma call her?

[01:15.26] I'mma name her Bonnie

[01:16.56] I read about your Uncle Ronnie, too, I'm sorry

[01:19.30] I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him

[01:22.55] I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan

[01:25.80] I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam

[01:28.80] I got a room full of your posters and your pictures, man

[01:31.80] I like the shit you did with Rawkus, too, that shit was phat

[01:34.80] Anyways, I hope you get this, man, hit me back

[01:37.55] Just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan

[01:39.53] This is Stan

[01:40.80] My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

[01:46.77] The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

[01:53.05] And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall

[01:59.05] It reminds me, that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

[02:04.29] Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance

[02:07.30] I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans

[02:10.55] If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert

[02:13.30] You didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew

[02:16.55] That's my little brother man, he's only six years old

[02:18.80] We waited in the blistering cold for you

[02:20.56] For four hours and you just said, "No"

[02:22.52] That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fucking idol

[02:25.30] He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do

[02:28.26] I ain't that mad though, I just don't like being lied to

[02:31.31] Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you

[02:34.56] You would write back - see I'm just like you in a way

[02:36.78] I never knew my father neither

[02:38.30] He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her

[02:40.80] I can relate to what you're saying in your songs

[02:43.31] So when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on

[02:46.31] 'Cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed

[02:49.05] I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest

[02:52.55] Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds

[02:55.29] It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me

[02:58.02] See everything you say is real, and I respect you 'cause you tell it

[03:01.27] My girlfriend's jealous 'cause I talk about you 24/7

[03:04.55] But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does

[03:07.26] She don't know what it was like for people like us growing up

[03:10.32] You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose

[03:13.02] Sincerely yours, Stan

[03:14.30] P.S.

[03:15.05] We should be together, too

[03:16.55] My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

[03:22.79] The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

[03:28.81] And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall

[03:35.05] It reminds me, that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

[03:40.30] Dear Mister I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,

[03:43.27] This'll be the last package I ever send your ass

[03:46.26] It's been six months and still no word. I don't deserve it?

[03:48.81] I know you got my last two letters;

[03:50.30] I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect

[03:52.55] So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it

[03:55.30] I'm in the car right now, I'm doing 90 on the freeway

[03:58.55] Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?

[04:01.80] You know the song by Phil Collins "In the Air Tonight"

[04:04.82] About that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning

[04:07.55] But didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a show he found him?

[04:10.29] That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drowning

[04:13.30] Now it's too late. I'm on a thousand downers now, I'm drowsy

[04:16.54] And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call

[04:19.02] I hope you know I ripped all of your pictures off the wall

[04:22.05] I loved you, Slim, we coulda been together, think about it

[04:25.55] You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it

[04:28.80] And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it

[04:31.81] I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me

[04:34.81] See, Slim,—shut up bitch! I'm trying to talk!

[04:37.31] Hey, Slim, that's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk,

[04:40.30] But I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up. See, I ain't like you

[04:43.30] 'Cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die, too

[04:46.30] Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now

[04:49.55] Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out?

[05:04.80] My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

[05:10.81] The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

[05:17.06] And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall

[05:22.80] It reminds me, that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

[05:28.53] Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I've just been busy

[05:31.03] You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?

[05:34.27] Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that

[05:37.05] And here's an autograph for your brother

[05:39.05] I wrote it on the Starter cap

[05:40.55] I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you

[05:43.55] Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you

[05:46.55] But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists, too?

[05:49.80] I say that shit's just clowning , dawg

[05:51.80] C'mon! How fucked up is you?

[05:52.80] You got some issues, Stan, I think you need some counseling

[05:55.30] To help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some

[05:58.55] And what's this shit about us meant to be together?

[06:01.05] That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other

[06:04.05] I really think you and your girlfriend need each other

[06:07.29] Or maybe you just need to treat her better

[06:09.56] I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time

[06:13.05] Before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doing just fine

[06:15.80] If you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but, Stan

[06:19.02] Why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan

[06:22.81] I just don't want you to do some crazy shit

[06:25.06] I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick

[06:28.55] Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge

[06:31.07] And had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid

[06:34.05] And in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to

[06:37.05] Come to think about it, his name was... it was you

[06:40.30] Damn!