NF - The Search

[00:03.64] "The Search"

[00:37.14] Hey Nate, how's life?

[00:38.64] I don't know, it's alright

[00:40.64] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being

[00:42.65] And really didn't sleep much last night (Last night)

[00:44.89] I'm sorry, that's fine

[00:46.64] I just think I need a little me time

[00:48.64] I just think I need a little free time

[00:50.89] Little break from the shows and the bus rides, yeah (Bus rides)

[00:52.65] Last year I had a breakdown

[00:54.90] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost, gettin' too loud

[00:56.39] Had to see a therapist and I found out

[00:58.39] Somethin' funny's going on up in my house

[01:00.40] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out

[01:02.40] You know, pack my cart, take a new route

[01:04.39] Clean up my yard, get the noose out

[01:06.39] Hang up my heart, let it air out (Air out)

[01:09.14] I've been searchin'

[01:09.89] What does that mean, Nate?

[01:10.89] I've been learning

[01:11.89] Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens

[01:13.65] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect

[01:15.64] Lookin' at the view like this concerns me

[01:17.64] Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous

[01:19.64] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry

[01:21.65] And things might hurt me

[01:23.40] It's probably gonna be a long journey, but hey! (But hey!)

[01:24.40] It's worth it though

[01:26.14] Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats

[01:28.15] Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to roam

[01:30.15] Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code

[01:32.14] Pretty vivid; I admit it, I'm in classic mode

[01:34.14] Don't need pity given to me but I can't condone

[01:36.15] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes

[01:38.15] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? (You seen it?)

[01:40.40] Been makin' a whole lot of changes

[01:42.64] Wrote a song about that, you should play it

[01:44.64] I get scared when I walk on these stages

[01:46.40] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah

[01:48.90] That's when I start to get anxious

[01:50.65] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous

[01:52.64] That's when I put on my make-up and drown in self-hatred

[01:55.40] Forget what I'm saying, and

[01:57.89] Where'd the beat go?

[01:58.39] Oh, ain't that somethin'?

[02:00.64] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'

[02:02.14] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'

[02:04.14] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach

[02:06.15] Throw it back up like I don't want it

[02:08.14] Wipe my face, clean up my vomit

[02:10.14] OCD, tryna push my buttons

[02:12.14] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

[02:14.39] I can be critical, never typical

[02:15.65] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal

[02:17.64] Intimate, but never political, pretty visual

[02:19.64] Even if you hate it, I'll make it feel like you're in it though

[02:21.89] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable

[02:23.64] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddie pool

[02:25.64] Way that I been thinkin' this cinematic is beautiful

[02:27.64] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos, videos)

[02:31.14] Yeah, the sales can rise

[02:32.14] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines

[02:34.14] See, we've all got somethin' that we trapped inside

[02:35.89] That we try to suffocate, you know, hopin' it dies

[02:38.14] Try to hold it underwater but it always survives

[02:40.14] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise

[02:42.64] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies

[02:44.13] You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am

[02:46.13] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place

[02:48.13] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way

[02:49.88] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe

[02:51.88] Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, OK?

[02:53.89] Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face

[02:56.14] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great

[02:57.89] You'll never be great—not because you're not, but the hate

[03:00.13] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (Woo!)

[03:02.39] I am developin', take a look at the benefits

[03:03.88] Nothin' to meddle with, I can never be delicate

[03:06.14] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it

[03:08.14] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence

[03:10.13] It's pretty evident; dependable can never be tentative

[03:12.14] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine

[03:13.88] Pretty elegant but not afraid to tell you to get a grip

[03:15.88] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah!

[03:18.38] It's that time again

[03:20.14] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends

[03:22.13] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in

[03:23.89] Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big

[03:25.89] On a road right now that I can't predict

[03:27.88] Tell me "Tone that down", but I can't resist

[03:30.13] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fists

[03:31.89] The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh (Huh, huh)