NF - Therapy Session
[00:06.26] "Therapy Session"
[00:22.51] Yeah, I got off stage like a month ago
[00:25.76] I was talking to fans
[00:27.00] And one of 'em pulled me aside and said
[00:28.76] "We never met, but I swear that you know who I am
[00:31.51] I've been through a lot
[00:32.51] I don't know how to express it to people, don't think that I can
[00:36.01] But I got that Mansion CD on rotation
[00:38.01] That's real for me, Nate, you do not understand"
[00:40.26] It's crazy for me
[00:41.26] Kids hit me up, say they slittin' they wrists on the daily
[00:44.01] This music is more than you think
[00:45.51] Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertainin'
[00:48.50] Hearin' these parents, they telling their kids
[00:50.51] My music is violent—you gotta be kidding me
[00:52.76] I guess that your definition of violence and mine
[00:55.50] Is something that we look at differently
[00:57.26] How do you picture me, huh?
[00:58.76] Want me to smile, you want me to laugh?
[01:01.51] You want me to walk on the stage with a smile on my face
[01:04.00] When I'm mad and put on a mask? For real though
[01:07.26] I mean, what you expect from me?
[01:09.01] I'm tryna do this respectfully
[01:10.27] They say that life is a race
[01:11.76] I knew my problems would prolly catch up eventually
[01:15.01] I do my best to be calm
[01:16.25] How you gon' write me and tell me you'd slaughter my family?
[01:19.00] That's just a glimpse to the stuff that gets sent to me
[01:21.26] These are the parts of my life they don't never see, woo!
[01:24.51] I am aware, it's aggressive
[01:26.00] I am not here for acceptance
[01:27.76] I don't know what you expected
[01:29.26] But what you expect when you walk in a therapy session, huh?
[01:33.50] Therapy, therapy session
[01:42.26] Therapy, therapy session
[01:50.60] This girl at the show looked me in the face
[01:52.85] And told me her life's full of drama (Yeah!)
[01:55.35] Said her dad is abusive
[01:56.85] Apparently, he likes to beat on her mama
[01:59.60] I got so angry inside
[02:01.85] I wanted to tell her to give me his number
[02:03.85] But what you gon' do with it, right?
[02:05.35] You gon' hit him up then he'll start hittin' her harder, that's real
[02:08.85] These kids, they come to my shows
[02:10.35] With tears in they eyes
[02:11.59] 'Magine someone looking at you
[02:12.85] And sayin' your music's the reason that they are alive
[02:15.60] Sometimes I don't know how to handle it
[02:17.60] This type of life isn't glamorous
[02:18.85] This ain't an act for the cameras (Nah!)
[02:20.60] You see me walk on these stages
[02:22.10] But have no idea what I'm dealing with after it, nah!
[02:24.85] I put it all in the open
[02:26.10] This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
[02:28.84] I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
[02:30.85] But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me
[02:33.10] I'm tryin' to deal with depression
[02:34.86] I'm tryin' to deal with the pressure
[02:36.35] How you gon' tell me my music does not have a message
[02:39.35] When I'm lookin' out at this crowd full of people I know I affected? Agh!
[02:43.35] I got some things in my life (My life)
[02:45.85] I know I should let 'em go (Let 'em go)
[02:48.10] Let me jot it down (Jot it down)
[02:49.60] Let me take a mental note (Mental note)
[02:51.35] I put it all in this microphone (Microphone)
[02:53.85] Think about that for a minute
[02:55.35] What is the point of this song? I'm just ventin'
[02:57.61] But what you expect from a therapy session, huh?
[03:00.85] Therapy, therapy session
[03:08.85] Therapy, therapy session
[03:17.85] What you think about me
[03:20.35] —That doesn't worry me
[03:21.35] I know I handle some things immaturely
[03:23.35] I know that I need to grow in maturity
[03:25.85] I ain't gon' walk on these stages, in front of these people
[03:28.10] And act like I live my life perfectly
[03:29.85] That doesn't work for me
[03:31.60] "Christian" is not the definition of what "perfect" means, woo!
[03:35.60] I ain't the type to be quiet
[03:37.10] I ain't gon' sit here in silence
[03:38.85] If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
[03:40.60] Then I promise you, I wouldn't say it in private
[03:42.85] I am not lyin'
[03:44.10] People go off on my page, and I'm tryin' to quit the replyin'
[03:47.35] But this is ridiculous
[03:48.60] I'm passionate, man, I really mean what I'm writing
[03:51.85] You want me to keep it a hundred?
[03:53.36] Okay, I'll keep it a hundred
[03:55.10] I see a whole lot of talkin' on socials
[03:57.10] But honestly, I don't see nothing in public
[03:59.35] I kinda love it, yeah
[04:01.85] "Why don't you write us some happy raps?
[04:03.85] That would be awesome"
[04:04.85] "All of your music is moody and dark, Nate"
[04:08.10] —Don't get me started (Yeah!)
[04:10.60] You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?
[04:13.85] Listen to my verses
[04:14.84] This music is not just for people
[04:16.35] Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches, nah!
[04:19.36] I won't reject it
[04:20.09] I don't expect everyone to respect it
[04:22.35] I don't expect you to get my perspective
[04:24.35] But what you expect from a therapy session?
[04:27.85] Huh?
[04:29.10] I mean, I think sometimes people—they confuse what I'm doin'
[04:40.10] I write about life, I write about things that I'm actually dealing with
[04:44.35] Something that I'm actually experiencing
[04:47.10] This is real for me
[04:48.60] Like, this is something that personally helps me as well
[04:51.84] I'm not confused about who gave me the gift
[04:54.10] God gave me the gift and He gave me the ability to—to do this
[04:57.35] And He also gave me this as an outlet
[04:59.60] And that's what music is for me
[05:01.35] When I feel something, whether it's anger
[05:03.35] Um, it's a passion about something—or frustration
[05:06.61] Like, this is where I go
[05:08.10] This is—this is—that's the whole "NF Real Music" thing, man
[05:11.85] This is real for me—I need this
[05:14.10] This is a therapy for me
